The Chapters of Anthea's Life.

Take this pain away from me, its unbearable.

2008-09-01T11:07:00.005+08:00

A tribute.
She's as vain as me, she loves to be dressed up in clothes, with her hair tied up in diff colours of ribbons everyday, in diff styles.
She's the main distraction,with that extremely adorable face of hers, the one to be blamed whenever i cant concentrate on my revisions, always running off to play with her.
She's the one whom i tease with all sorts of names, lil princess, our baby, the spoiled brat, chubby,to whatever names i can associate with chubby and cuteness. cause she's all that.
She's the one that won a beauty pageant contest and was featured in the Star Newspaper.
She's the apple of the eye, the main joy giver at home, never fails to cheer me up whenever im down, just by looking at her, the way she sleeps, with her tongue always sticking out, her groggy face, just by talking to her, telling her my secrets, just by having her jump up and greet me.
Like a baby, despite having her for 7 years already, each and everyday, she never fails to amuse us with something new.
She's the epitome of cute, how i see her in everything cute stuff i see, how it reminded me of her.
She's friggin smart, she does high fives and tens, she shakes hands,all that we've trained her ever since she was a puppy. She's even trained on her toilet habits.
She loves to hear me read aloud, she loves the sound of the piano and guitar .
Superbly Cute and pretty is an understatement for her.
She's the centre of attention whenever visitors come to my house.
Everybody loves her, even ppl whose afraid of dogs.
She's not a dog in our family. she's a family member, our youngest member in the family.

And all that is history now, the heart wrenching fact, the harsh reality which im not willing to accept, hoping that i'll wake up from this dream. so, pinch me.
The whole house is weighed down with her absence.
Heavy silence of unspoken grief.
I know i'll wake up in the morning, just like i did this morning,with tears rolling down uncontrollably, having to realize all over again, that she's never coming back anymore.
I wont see her greeting me in the morning, excitedly wagging her tail.
I wont see her accompanying me throughout my late nights loyally, when everyone else's asleep in the household.
I wont have her clinging to me whenever lightning and thunderstorms frightened her.
I wont have her following my heels to the door, or greeting me enthusiastically whenever i go in and out of the house.
I'll never have to wonder what colour of a ribbon she's wearing today while im in school.
I'll never feel that satisfying weight of hers in my arms.
I'll never have her soft fur to snuggle into again.
I'll never have anyone to baby talk to again.
And now, whenever i eat my food, to the last piece of whatever's left, it feels weird not having anyone to pester me for it, cause the greedy girl's not around anymore.
Everywhere i go in the hse, her presence lingers, as if she's still there, like every other day, with her toys and clothes lying around, smelling of her.
But the fact is, she's not, and she's never coming back again.
I'll never see her peeking from the car window, whenever mum fetches me from tuitions.
I never knew that would be my last time seeing her when mum and sis sent her to the clinic, as we thought she was juz normally ill.

I've never lost someone so dear to me in my entire life before, so closely knitted and directly attached to.
She plays a huge role in every way in my life as well as my family's.
and now i finally know how ppl break down when they went to identify their loved ones' body.
God, it hurts like crap, right to the core, with the pain and sorrow squeezing the hell outta you.
My eyes and face feel sore from all the crying and tissues.Cant remember when's the last time i cried this hard.
Things only get worse when im in the middle of the crappy SPM trials. I cant seem to focus.No matter how hard to try to pull myself together, my thoughts will always stray and i'll find myself breaking down in hysterical sobs again. gosh.
I miss her terribly, i dont want anything else ,i only want her back again.
Tell me how am i gonna pull myself through this mess.
i pray that she's all safe and sound with God in heaven now, leading a way better life than she did before.

In loving memory of Cookie, my dearest and most beloved. I love you to bits, more than anything else in the world. She's not just any dog, she's our pride, she's the best among all, she's our dog. I swear to myself, i'll never keep pets again, the pain is overwhelming.
31.08.2008

Forsworn

2008-07-18T23:11:00.004+08:00

To make it up for the many days i havent been updating my blog, and for the sake of entertaining elaine =), and also to lay my mind off some workload , momentarily, i'll just fulfill my tagged obligations. Here's for you lah elaine chin . blah.

1. At what age do you wish to married?
ask my mates in class, they'll still josh about my initial "thought" of becoming a nun in the Vatican City, it aint impossible though ;) anyway, if i dont ,it'd prolly be around late 20's too. =).

2. Study hard or play hard?
honestly, it depends on the circumstances your in.

3. Who is the person u trust the most?
me, myself and i.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
never stop striving for more each and every day.

5. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
my " beach dream". though not many know about it. p & c =).

6. Who is your favorite cartoon character?
tweety bird! lol.

7. What is your ideal friend?
someone who accepts me for who i am, and who never fails to be there for me, whenever, wherever.

8. What is your goal this year?
To be happier than last year and of course to obtain good spm results.

9. Do you believe in eternity love?
haha. no comments.

10. If you have all the time and money in the world, what would you do?
OBVIOUSLY, i'll go berserk on a shopping spree and i wanna travel around the world to exotic places and have the most impressive collection of luxurious chocolates =P.

11. When will you feel sad?
when you make me.

12. Balloons or Candy?
neither.

13. What feelings you hate the most?
Destitude. boredom. sadness. disappointment.

14. What is your childhood ambition?
Initially, it was being a doctor, until i came to realize that i cant pretty much stand the sight of blood or any other gruesome sights, makes me go light headed with that squeezing feeling in my heart.

15. Do you believe in love at first sight?
i suppose.

16. What do you want now?
honestly, everything. demanding, as always =).

17. Who do you hope to be always behind you, supporting you?
my loved ones.

18. People who are going to be hated by you?
people who put words into my mouth and accused me of things i didnt do.

19. Describe the person who tagged you in five words.
Noisy. Amplifier. Loud =P, nevertheless, an endearing and kind soul.

20. Do you deserve to be loved?
you bet i do.

21. Do you wish to have more than 24 hours per day?
i couldnt have wished for less. honestly, seeing how hectic it is for me nowadays. that should be ontop of my wishlist for the time being. in fact, i always have this secret wish that i can freeze time =P.

Race. I've never ran one as tired as this, so out of breath, i think im on the verge of giving up. Are you gonna stop running? or maybe you already did.

Brood.

2008-07-06T14:26:00.002+08:00

Time

Cruelly Irreversible.

It makes me so mad

Knowing i can never grab hold of it

Turn it around whichever way i wish to

Always speeding ahead

Oblivious of my yearns for it to stay

So mad

Cause i cant seem to be in control of it

If only....

So why dwell on the "what-could-have-been", when there really aint nothing much we can do about it now. & That's just my weakness, constantly running back into the past, an act which serves no purpose , but only as an impediment for me to focus on the now and the tomorrow.

.... because sleeping makes time seep faster, without u even realizing, and thats the best thing u should do, when you're tired of waiting .

Sunset.

Whats your problem? Your my problem.

2008-07-05T21:56:00.004+08:00

Jogathon.Its yet another silver medal for me, just like my 1500 m event, cause Li Wen's always hogging that gold =). 10 seconds was all that mattered. Her time clocked 16:10, my time clocked 16:20. my determination level was dying low. tsk tsk. i think the choc binging over the past month had a great deal to do with it too. excuses =P.Good job girl, once again we helped our house clutched first and second placing. Hopefully Hebat wins overall champion for the jogathon. Congrats to all you top 20 finalists too, great run peeps. & of course my two jogging buddies, eugene and adrian, clinched gold and silver respectively.

Daddy's back for the weekend. Bought for chocs for me from the airport. Hersheys, Cadbury's, Reese and Lindts. yup yup. time to satisfy that sweet tooth.So after church service today, i wanted to have Jap for dinner. Unfortunately, Sushi Zanmai had a friggin long queue awaiting, so we settled for Sakae instead. Though, i still preferred Zanmai.=). Went shopping with dad and mum after dinner. Gap was having sales, a spendthrift i was and still am, got myself a pair of jeans. There, i saw a familiar face, it was nice seeing him again. Victor. Just came back from Ns from Sabah apparently. With a crew cut hairstyle and looking a lil buffer now, currently working in Gap.

I bumped into Candy Sow too , then saw Pak Sen working in SonyEricsson. Seems like everyone's got a job in Ou. Anyway, i forgotten to get my mint choc chip Gelato ice cream before i left. =/ and the Theobromas Choc Lounge still aint open yet.. urgghh. bummer.oh oh! i saw a realllly looooveeely baby blue volkswagen beetle juz now. tsk tsk. love at first sight. i use to tell pig that my dream car wud be a yellow vw beetle, but now i change my mind. i want just that kinda blue. *drools*.

Lucky find. I thought thats the end of it when Jloh told me he cudnt find this pic of mine. Then i stumbled upon it in J Chan's pendrive the other day. This is in fact one of my fav pic.

In my green saree receiving the medal. privilege sial. solid proof of me rushing from 800m to perbarisan to price giving , without a second to kill, and then change for my 1500m run.

Im starting to like the colour green
though i like Hebat since long time ago. cheh.

Bittersweet, the time of our lives.

2008-07-02T19:51:00.010+08:00

01.07.2008

marks my retirement as a prefect and an assistant head prefect of SMKDJ, after 4 and a 1/2 years . All the way from form one,one of the oldest existing prefect in the board, to the extend i created a "trademark" for myself, where some ppl from other schools call me "Anthea the prefect". lols. It was relieving yet pretty rueful to leave the job, after all it covered pretty much the entire of my high school life. Having done something so routined for half a decade, it felt as if something was missing, having nothing to do, no responsibilities to bear, free to spend the morning and recess with your friends, no more speed walking to hurry around the blocks, no more entering the classes late, not having the liberty to go out of class anytime u want, basically just a powerless simple student =). On a brighter note, i'd say, hell yeah i deserve a good break , for starters , waking up late and going to school late =). Happy retirement y'all bunch of "senior citizens " of the board.

My TLS purse, prefect's room key, Rondaan Pass, Namebook,
Blazer, Best prefect pin, Name Tag and a framed up souvenir from my juniors.

No longer in use.

A day before we stepped down, 5 of us, Ming ping, Jason, Nic, Jloh and I attended SMKDU's prefect's installation and handover ceremony, courtesy of Ming Ping's 'skillful maneuver on his new Saga". U can say we made a grand entrance by being "fashionably" late, arrived in the midst of their assembly. tsk tsk. Anyway, the highlight of the day was basically the school. For Nic and i, it was love at first sight , after we went goo goo gaa gaa over the impressive landscapes, almost impeccably clean compound, lovely murals, huge compound, a gated asrama behind and everything. A good place to play hide and seek. haha, sorry , jakunness exposed. =P But seriously, our school looks really pathetic in comparison =).

Rollie Pollie and i.

*hands up*, its obviously her idea for the retarded syiok sendiri pose =).

Bonding- SMKDJDU PREFECTS.

i should say the du prefects are certainly very welcoming and sociable people.

The Scouts Alley.

hmm, a second look at it, makes me think of one the word SIBLINGS.

no?=)

Us invaders liberated ourselves to roam around the school, before being shown around by a kind prefect, easily the tallest guy in SMKDU i suppose. Manage to class- hop around and met up with truckloads of ex primary mates in du currently, like Hui Hun, Xinni, Jia Hui, Chien Yen, Shin Yin, Wes, Mark, Sun Siew, Eeven,Charmaine and many more. Bumped into my church mates too, Jaritha, Jacqueline, Christine, Thaddeus... Potato had her old school reunion too, while Jloh has his fellow interactors/scouts reunion =).

Told u the landscape was nice.

Us and our bodyguard of the day.

Overall, it was fun.

So long Du, thanks for being a great host.

Irrelevantly, went for my last hebat hse practice yesterday, lead my hse members for a quick run around the marathon route for this Sat's Jogathon.On our second round, an Unggul hse member joined us, no other than Eugene Lai here.

wanna know something? i think yesterday was the first time i ever lay my taste buds on Slurpee.

Another jakunness exposed. =P.

nyways, i loved it!

I just happen to stumble upon this pic, and realized i havent posted this overdue sports day shot.I oughta say i look downright retarded in this picture,BUT, for the benefit of the rest of u in the picture, all genuinely smiling away, this upload if for y'all. so steal or copy it whichever u want. =)

* Further updates as soon as i get hold of the pictures in everyone else's came. ta' raa!

- All good things come to an end -

The Blues

2008-06-28T23:19:00.009+08:00

House Captains and Co Captains of year 2008

Prefect's Camp - Kuala Kubu Baru
It was fun, though it cud have been better =). A pretty nice area though, huge compound,alot of land wastage i would say, though it makes u feel like running around all the time. Its an active NS training campsite btw, so it pretty much gives u a rough idea hows the living life for NS gonna be like. I gotta tell you, just the sight of those cutleries you'll be using makes u lose wtv appetite you've got . I wont even go further to the bedspreads and closets you'll be using, leave that up to your imagination =).

* note : picture's are not in chronological order, to lazy to organize em'.

Nic i , entertaining ourselves while waiting for dinner to be served.

in the sunset dusk

Anthea, Nic and Jo-yi

spell it with me, A-N-T-H-E-A.

Nic aka roly poly aka potato =)

woot, potato's pretty strong after all

Rendezvous

A night of mafia game, bonding, chipsmore , marshmallows

& " char siew bao "(inside joke)

Day 2-Jungle Trekking

Day 1- Hsien, Loh, Me and Wern Lin

Jloh and i
on top of my fav obstacle course.

Beloved chem pals

Taking a break in the midst of the course

nic and i

identities so commonly mixed and switched.=/
esp throughout camp, ppl kept confusing themselves over both of us.

Commando crawl

Day 1-J loh's Trust Fall

The super long corridors that freaks you out
when u walk back to your dorm alone at night

The gathered strengths of KP & PKP owning in chor dai di =)

Day 2- Flying Fox

Day 3- Rafting, too bad we dont have pictures of it.

Camp aftermath? all day long hibernation back home after tuckin in at 4.30 and wakin up at 6 for two days in a row. I counted a total of 20 + bruises all the way from my thighs to my legs, without a tiniest clue how i got it. sunburnt, and a vivid memory of camp to last me for a week's good night sleep. you guys were great company =).

Pictures , courtesy of Calvin ,Jloh & J chan. =)

bally-o-bongo.

2008-06-20T02:13:00.003+08:00

Bora Asmara

A sentimental balinese outdoor dining nestled within Kpg Penchala.

Belated birthday dinner with The Friends.
Ian, kikie, 3na, pig, kc, ws, gene, drian and i.

candid

my pigging partner

the cosy Bisek

peekaboo

3/4 of the quartet

the entrance

kikie, blending in with the balinese ambient.

the indian model =P

Iannie

The only distracting and disturbing thing of the night.
the cat, my phobia.
ironically, on my birthday.

Gene, Sheng, Loong.

cap and co cap.

adrian michael joseph sanker.

lai yong wen.

us again

adrian just ruined the picture.

3naaaa
i've saved the brownies for you=)

senoritas

the best bud.

Yew Hann and Chi Ming dropped by after dinner, ferried half the lot to my Condo, the remaining half wasn ferried by dad. The boys laid out the cards and vodka while i brought down my birthday brownies, only to be surprised with another huge cake brought by Ana when she came to join us after dinner. Thanks girl, Eugene and Candice too for the lovely surprise =). Since everyone had to go to school, so we ended at about 11 plus , though i stayed up a long while more to finish up my packing for my prefects camp the next morning .
A heartfelt thank you all for every single thing =).

Anniversary of my existence in this world =)

2008-06-19T12:25:00.007+08:00

Sexay Seventeenth Birthday.

Firstly, i thank God for the fact that I'm still happy, safe and alive to be able to reach my
17th year . Amen.
for some, its quite hard to maintain that streak, unfortunately =/.

Thank you all you darlings out there with ur calls, texts, blog, face-to-face and through friendster's birthday wishes.especially those of you who were struggling to stay up to wish me right on the dot or even those who intended to, but fell asleep in the midst of it.
seroiusly. Also, those ol mates of mine, who never failed to wish me year in year out. To Bernice, despite being far away in Melbourne, u never missed my birthday. miss u to bits and pieces =).
Thank you to my junior prefects, wai meng and syamir too for the early bday gift. appreciate it.
Y'all really know how to make a birthday girl's day.=)

At the stroke of 12.oo on Wed, got a call and was asked to go down to the poolside.
Man, i had a surprise. Chi Ming passed me a cake, a card and a present, on behalf of all the "steady bros". thank youuu. Then, i was even more surprised to see he wasnt alone there,
familiar faces of Pak Sen, Marc Wong, Eric and Fei Lou. Thanks ppl for ur wishes.

Slept at about 3, after replying all the messages and calls, and save the last talk with my buddy, ian of course. dragged the lazy bum to school. I suggest ppl should start declaring bdays as a holiday for the respective individuals =).Thank you ppl for all your thoughful presents .Went lunch with ma and che at O brien's and did a lil birthday shopping. Then headed to accounts tuition later in the afternoon ( which apparently is another thing which i should be deservingly spared on this special day ). pfft.

a birthday, a belated father's day and a farewell.

Purple fever

Birthdays are also a day to remember mums
They endured labour pain just for us .
luv u ma.

Dad and mum.

Daddy took a leave, and flew back today from out station esp to celebrate my birthday and of course sis' "farewell" too. tsk tsk, typical daddy's girls.
Had dinner at Vincenzo, OneBangsar,
since noone really felt like going Castell at the end of the day.
Great italian food served in a sentimental ambient.
Presention of food is highly noted

thinking what to wish

bye che, enjoy ur trip in Perth.
Don worry, i'lll hog your room and your com while ur away.
and your car too, soon.
i'll be waiting for you to bring truckloads of stuff back for me.
next month.

Then headed home to blow the cake( brownies) i got yesterday, and made my 3 wishes =)
My young Godma, dropped by my place to pass me my birthday gift.
it was the loveliest gift ever.
Thanks Kristie.

To make it up to me, since he said to drop by last night to wish me,only to fall asleep eventually,
Erwin picked me up to have dessert at Boathouse,
just one hour before my day ended.
Thank youuu for the treat and the ride, ol friend =).

All in all, i guess i've lived my day to the fullest.
love all u sweethearts out there for being guilty of one thing,
to make me swoon in bliss and for making my jaws ached with smiles.

You left me hanging by a thread.

Make me happy, if not happier.

A picture, flipped over.

2008-06-16T20:54:00.003+08:00

The long awaited day finally came. So long it took that people almost seemed to forget the anxiety that bubbled up while being kept in suspense, with so many speculations and rumours going about.
To the extend that, we ALMOST forgotten, it mattered, in any way.

So, it was officially announced today that Unggul was the champion for this year's Sports Day, while Hebat came in second, followed by Kesatria. All's been said and done, i guess we're all pretty muh contented with the result. Anyways, kudos to Eugene for clinching both b est athlete in our category and Sportsman of the year 2008 =). You bet u deserve it. I guess thats that. i should say all that training and sweat reli paid off, for a good ending =).

Pn yap's.
credits goes to Anabel for taking this candid shot.

No more hurrying for jogs right after tuition =)

no more dragging the lazy bums bums and the growling stomache
early in the morning and trying in vain to jog and stiffle a yawn.
not to forget the habit of buying soya bean after every run =)

what's left are only shadows and cherished moments .

alrightey, off to work on that stupid bm essay now.
i promise i'll see to that dramatic act of setting all my bm books on fire and watch each and every bm word turn into ashes, then sweep them off nonchalantly, as if it was never part of my life =P.
oh yeahh .

confused.

2008-06-14T22:24:00.008+08:00

Met up with old friend today, no other than Erwin Soon Wei Jin.
Picked me up at my place, then went over to ou, cause i was craving for Nando's.
Never tasted better, still the same yummylicious 1/4 chicken =).
We wanted to catch The Happening, but then the queue at Gsc was friggin long, and since i wasnt planning to seduce anyone at the Gold Class counter to get a short cut for a ticket purchase, we went off to Curve instead, with the hope of a shorter queue. oh, i just knew ou's openning this chocolate lounge place, soon. oooohh, for a choc lover like me, im ecstatic! =P cant wait.

Anyway, when we got to curve, the line's as long as usual, and the movie time was pretty late.
Then, we went browsing around for mint choc chip ice cream at BR, attempt was to no avail.Since we had time, and i was in a pretty desperate crave, headed over to Centrepoint instead.But wth, seemed like all BR's around just ran outta it. so i settled with Mc'ds Mcflurry =).Anyway it was a nice day, catching up with that ol buddy, much of laughs and old times pouring back. Thanks for everything you!.

Was suppose to tag Trina and Kirs to Jian Hao's partay at KLCC tonight, but since dad wudnt allow, and mum's home alone tonight, i stayed behind. went for a jog in the evening instead, wasnt that mundane a jog today, thanks to the "melodious tune" i heard,coming from an open window in the lowe rise block, some dude having his "malaysian idol" moment in the showers,, haha, cudnt help it but stiffled a laugh whenever i turned the same corner. but what do u know, he was singing so long in the showers that it actually lasted me for a few rounds. =)
off to bed now, night ppl, sleep well, to a better day tom! =).

thea.

Chagrin.

2008-06-11T21:48:00.003+08:00

I haven't much to blog honestly, much less the enthusiasm to.
Probably just updating about the last few days of hols,
since i'm still pretty much in my holiday mood.

so lets see , from 6th of june to 8th of june
Friday: movie with Mark, Wes, Chi Ming & Jien Yoong. Caught Prom Night.
what a joke, waste of money and time. it has got to be the most boring, draggy,
nonsensical and unexciting movie. Ever. I'd give it a C, if it wasnt because of the nice idea of "prom".
Headed over to Curve. Then Kenneth picked me up for mango dessert at Centrepoint.

Saturday: potong day. Pig and i were supposed to have our Undang Test, but the 'oh-so-responsible' agent dint inform us that it's postponed due to the public hol. i swear that wasnt the first time i've ever got so agitated with him. what a pity, Pig and i cud have joined Kc & the rest for Click Five at Genting. improvising, we decided to go Pavilion instead. so i tagged Pig's mum, sis and her fiancee to Pavilion for shopping.
After church, had dinner with family at King Crab.
Night, yam cha-ed at Rasta with the Mark, Jy, Cm, Derek and the usuals. Them boys suggested to go haunted house hunting at Penchala and TTDI.
Then , off i went home to finish up my addictive read of the paranormal.

Sunday : Pig's sis' fiancee dropped us at DU early. Had breakfast at Starbucks while "revising" and killing time. Coincidently, met Louis at the agency too,along with his two BU4 friends.
We got to the place at about 1, and guess what time did we take our test? 4.30 +. incredulous.
Good news though, we all passed. yeah. wee.

school reopened. boo hoo.
which means no more lolling around, and reliving the whole stressful routine again.
June's gonna be a busy month for me.
what with camp, sis leaving, birthday, party, catchin up with ol pals, relatives visiting, and upcoming jogathon. gahh.
guess its gonna be just me and ma and chubby pie at home after sis leaves.
<3.

& maybe im the only one still foolish enough,

to remember each and everything that used to happen,

oh so clearly and vividly, this time of the year

as if it had just happened yesterday,

the face and voice i was once so familiar with,

apparently having a good memory aint so much of a bonus after all

i feel like i've been going round & round in circles,

and still ending up at the same point, right where i started off.

so, help me to let go, cause u already did.

i wanna know what i want.

Cause i've learnt enough from my mistakes.

2008-06-04T16:31:00.002+08:00

So i met up with Kenneth (behbeh) today. Catchin up after 2 years of lost contact and before he leaves to Aus for his further studies. Had a good lunch at Nirwana Maju, Bangsar - my ol time fav for Banana leaf rice. Then, went over to Ou cause i had a crave for bubble tea. Killed time playing chor dai ti in Yippeee Cup. Dyamm, what a good boost of self esteem, i beat the self proclaimed chor dai ti pro. haha. sorray. gotta give myself some credit here =).

Anyway, what i really want to mention here is . He said something today that makes a whole lotta sense .He said something like " if a guy likes a girl for a good long time, as in really long, say years, sometimes it doesnt mean that that guy is simply loyal , or especially fanatic about the girl, but sometimes it means that he is simply too used to liking that girl, the guy prolly dint look around him to try and widen his prospects and accepts other choices, but rather he's too focused on the same girl to the extend it becomes a hard-to-kick habit to him , unknowingly. so routine that life wud feel a lil outta the norm once he stops liking the girl.

And thats why u cant be too sure of things at all times eh?;)

Paranormal

2008-05-31T21:51:00.004+08:00

Just a blink of an eye, its one week of hols gone. And it felt like yesterday when i was so exuberant over the first day of hols, exactly a week ago.

and i get so bored and restless so easily at home.

day before yesterday, was another lifeless day of mine at Ou with mum and sis. the Chua Girls day out. had a really good lunch at Sushi Zanmai, beats Sushi Groove hands down yo. yet another day of shopping. girls can never have enuf of it , it seems. bumped into truckloads of ppl, met up with Eugene too, after he went "MIA" for a few days, ishh. Headed for Starbucks then loitered around for abit before i rejoined mum and sis. Bumped into Kow and Yi Ching too. my biggest mistake? i forgotten that it was 30th of May yesterday, despite remembering that his birthday was on 30th of May all the while. needless to say, i also forgotten to wish him , despite meeting face to face. *slaps forehead *. anyway, gonna say it again here....

Happy Moo-ish 17th Birthday, Jer! =)

Bummed around in Rasta again at night, along with Jien Yoong, Mark, Marc, Chi Ming and one of their friend, too bad Jer dint come in time. Somehow, our topic of conversation strayed off to "ze supernaturnal " stuff. them guys were yapping away about haunted houses at various locations. mmm, interesting. just my cup of tea. made me realised how much i miss those younger days of mine, when i'll just pester any adult i know for ghost stories, or when a few of us young ones wud huddle together during halloween night to hear our uncle and aunties rant on about supposedly "true ghostly happenings", then one of us wud dare the other to climb the flight of stairs alone towards my aunt's attic. ciao-ed early at 10.30 just in time to see Khai reaching with his bunch of friends.

yesterday, outta boredom, i grabbed my Jodi Picoult's novel and went down to the high rise pool side, laid back lazily on the pool chair and started my first page. wonderful day for a read, the wind almost lulled me to sleep. the book was coincidently about the paranormal again - second glance.interesting read. im so in the mood for more ghost stories now.

i quote " we see only what we want to believe ".

today ... is.... World Milk Day! i honestly never knew such a day existed. Anyway, i heard that Dutch Lady's gonna offer 50,000 free milk tom at the Curve, so yeah, go get em freebies ppl.

my new promise to myself : I'm gonna abstain from Mcdonalds for one whole month, or maybe more. yeeeppp, mark my words . i never thought i'd get sick of it, but well, i finally did.

my latest addiction : soya bean milk! top it off with grass jelly or pearls. heavenly.

my latest want : that top in Pull & Bear.

you thought u found an entrance into my heart,

but it turned out to be a painted door drawn on a wall.

... it's a tuesday, a wednesday & a thurs.

2008-05-29T22:10:00.003+08:00

bummer, and double bummer.my com kena virus laaahhh.. isshhh..
so much for staying up late this hols and rot in front of my com till the wee hours in the morning,
pfft, i guess God really has plans for me to utilize my time on summin else..
so i guess y'all shant expect too frequent an update frommee these two weeks.yada yada..

my style, more backtracking...

THE TUESDAY,

i spent the entire day shopping with mama again, from Ikea, Ikano, Curve then to Cats Whiskers. "burning" more money , tsk tsk , ever so sinful. then night, was suppose to head to Rasta, but then i had bible knowledge class. After my class, kee chong and yew loong came over to my place from Rasta instead. Had a nice chit chat by the breezy high rise poolside.

THE WEDNESDAY,

Kane, Jason, and Audrey came over to my place to "revise" for our upcoming accounts exam. i know, we're such "nerds", hols also still have to study. ish.. but wut to do lah, we've got "important" accounts exam next week laahh. The day was pretty fun, i think we spent half of the time actively exercising our mouth on food and yapping away rather than focusing on those blurring figures.

THE THURSDAY,

Pig and i went for our "ceramah" thingie or u may call it the KPP course. My goodness, it was the longest Thursday for me ever. I think i'd prolly burst into tears if i were to go there alone. gaahh. Anyway, long story short, lets just say, pig and i learnt to appreciate the PJ area better now. We dropped off at Ou later in the evening, to treat our starved tummies with a good helping of Mcdees. & we've never been happier to be in Ou. haha, sounds like some refugees who have been kidnapped or thrown into a 3rd world country and haven eaten mcd's or seen a proper mall before eh?

well, i'll let u figure out that "long story" we encountered today =).

say hi to the newly turned 17 - Mark de alwis

mates since primary yoo

kirsten!

That thing you do

2008-05-26T20:20:00.004+08:00

woke up with a really heavy headache today, i wonder if its from "overdosage" of sleep.

1pm yoo, its been long since i last remembered waking up this late.

on the other hand, perhaps its to do with that lil brain mechanism of mine, actively overworked again.

i seem to to be travelling in some kinda time machine lately, somewhat brought me back to various stages and periods of my high school life. It's unfolding so vividly in my mind that i thought im reliving that moment yet again, enhanced by a lil touch of deja vu there.

although its not really an uncommon phenomenon anymore, it still made me wonder how people who were once closely associated , can just drift apart as unexpectedly as how they were once drawn together. and of course, looking back to the 5 years of high school life, you 'd see for yerself how many friendships or relationships did sustain thus far. then again it made me think, if we made a different decision in the first place, wud things turn out otherwise? or maybe we shud "go with the flow" and go with the phrase" everything happened for a reason", and leave things jus as it is and move on?

or shud we try to pick up from where we left, amend for the better? but then again, if the other party has no intention on picking it up along with you, let alone initiate it, shud we just forget all about it, and "accept fate"? tell me about it.

anyhoeeeeys, backtrack 24 hours.

25.05.2008 - i mark the 6 months "anniversary", though i still dunno why i bother.amazing how time flies. what anniversary? that's a secret , my secret ;) but maybe, just maybe, u'd know. you, yes you.

yesterday, not as eventful as sat i wud say. loitered around Ou and watched Narnia, met up with Sheng and Kenny, had a donut treat then headed over to Jer's partay later in the evening.

Pics will be uploaded la'er after i steal em from Kiki's blog.

meanwhile, this was sat's delayed uploads

Wei Sheng and I

7 years long good ol lousy friend.

yep, spot the irony.

my two men in black of the night.

and so i ask myself , what do i really really want?

la di dum

2008-05-25T01:26:00.004+08:00

All's great today. It's been long since i've managed to really let my hair down and go all out to enjoy myself. *pats anthea on back *. ahh.. well deserved =Pp

so i woke up this morning, late, and rushed down with a grumbling tummy to meet lai yong wen. Then off to the park for a jog, only to be more aware of my "deteriorating" stamina =/, my oh my, i wonder how long will it take for me to cover up all the days i've missed my jogs already. anyway, lai yong wen had to leave early, so i stayed on behind and ended up jogging back alone. but wth, ppl always say " look where ur walking",on my way back, i bumped into one of my worst phobias. rodents. my goodness, its two this time! flattened on the road, disfigured and disgusting rats. *
shrieks exaggeratedly*, that only motivated me to speed up my pace and reached home safe and sound.

its all ur fault lah lai yong wen, ish.

off to curve for brunch with mum and dad. i discovered my new "high-er class" mamak.- Teh Tarik Place . have always wanted to try it out, never managed to until today. mmm, they've got fabulous tosai, fried meehon,sambal and of course teh tarik! so anytime,y'all wanna go "yamcha or teh tarik" there , count me in too , u bet i'll be up for it =).then then, i met up with ol buddy, wei ian. seroiusly, i gotta say he's one helluva patient person laaaa. u see, im a pretty indecisive person, it gets worse when it comes to shopping, thats why not everyone can tolerate that "shopping manner" of mine. wei ian is definitely one of the very few who can. thumbs up boy, keep it up, good training for ur future, that is if u ever get a shopaholic as ur girl ;). sso my shopping spree only ended up with shirts, shoes nd earrings today. not quite done yet. to be continued tom , at a different venue though =).thanks for everything iannie!

credits go to wei ian for the pictures below. outfit of the day :

later, candy, ana and wei sheng came over my place and yew loong's future bro-in-law, dropped us off at Rasta. Since Mark was having his beldated bday celeb today as well, i decided to hop over his place and come back to Rasta when KeeChong is finally there . So mark and bro offered a ride there, since lil girl here still hasnt got her license. though tow jen came at the nick of time, so i tagged his ride instead. went to mark's place and everyone was there, was even surprised to see mun yoong there.was craving for bbq-ed marshies , though everyone cudnt buy marshies from everywhere or anywhere, so i settled with my barbequed lamb before tow jen and i left for Rasta again, cause poor yew loong and wei sheng was dying of boredome there =P.the girls left already leaving the 3 boys and i behind. starving, i had my long awaited waffle, while we rattle the night away. good to see ppl whom i haven seen in ages at rasta tonight, that includes khairil and adrian tay & the bu4 crowd. just realized i havent seen them in ages=/

oh oh! last night i stumbled upon that TAN HONG MING video clip ad by Yasmin Ahmad again.

haha, its shooo cute !

for those of u who hasnt heard of it, go google it up!

its an unfair life, so many boys, so little time ;)

Rest of the pics are in Ana and Ws's phone. couch potato duty calling! till then.

Ecstatic

2008-05-23T17:48:00.003+08:00

woot!
oh hail the long awaited 23rd of May.
last day of the friggin mid term exams.
i never felt as relieved as this before, despite the countless exams taken since form 1.
outta my sight, books!

i think im turning into a caffeine addict with a serious sleep deficit
what with 3 insanely killer week exams.
studying around the clock, downing anything caffeinated within reach
from cappucino, to latte to mocha to black coffee and what not =).

so yup, to reward myself,
im gonna have a huge ass shopping spree starting from tom
and looong list of "things to do", like how they always say it, longer than Natalie Portman's resume.
imma immmaa gonna refurbish my room too, esp my soon to explode wardrobe
which cant fit more clothes in anymore, before they come tumbling down like avalanche.

so yeeeepp, try to fit in my tight schedule then !;)

i'll update more when my holiday OFFICIALLY starts tom!

tara'!

Instant Remedy

2008-05-19T00:04:00.003+08:00

For those whose been pretty worked up lately, hope these pics can cheer you up a lil.

even for just a moment.

i know they did for me =)

I should say this is the only kinda flower that'll truly melt my heart.

genuine.

me and my chocolate obsession ;P.

sexaaayy.

2008-05-18T19:29:00.002+08:00

I never knew perfection till
i heard you speak and now it kills me
Just to hear u say the simple things

Now waking up is hard to do
sleeping's impossible too
and everything's reminding me of you
what can i do?

its not right, not okay
say the words that your saying
maybe we're better off this way

im not fine, im in pain
its harder everyday
maybe we're better off this way
its better that we break

A fool to let you slip away
i'll chase you just to hear you say
you're scared enough
you think that im insane

i see you, you look so nice from here
pity, i cant see it clearly,
why you're standing there
it disappears, it disappears

saw you sitting on the lawn
you're fragile and you're cold
but that's alright

the lie these days is getting rough
knocked you down and beat you up
but it's just a roller coaster anyway, yeah.

- maroon 5- better that we break -

nice one! ;)

Because Im worth it.

2008-05-15T22:03:00.004+08:00

* Heaves a breath *

2 weeks down, one more to beat.

ohhailthataddmath1paper.

Did u guys ever wonder how long the exam hours actually summed up to be?

us with our numb buttocks stuck onto the chair, while cracking our brains,

drying our pen inks while our fingers go blue-black due to the "exceeded speed limit" of writing.

well, i for one just happen to think of that today.

so i've calculated.( yup thats what exams do to people like me ).

FYI, its about 22 papers and approximately 41 hours , +-.

a blurdy 41 hours!! holy moly.

Anyhooeeyysss, just a lil update on the belated Mum's day last Sunday.

Venue for the occasion : TTDI PLAZA'S Korean Bbq Restaurant.

Moi

Ma & Pa

Bbq-ed meat with wine. Purrfect.

The tableful of so called " Korean Tapas"

and the finger licking good bbq-ed meat. mMmm

Happy Mums's day Mama!

Thats all for now, was supposed to be studying actually.

Unfortunately,

i was "side tracked".

Darn com.

=p.

You had more of me with you ,

rather than me having more of you with me.

Hush now....

2008-05-09T16:52:00.007+08:00

The way that it was and could have been surrounds me.
Memories of you are still peppered on my mind.
That i dont deny.
How did we end up like this.
If only you knew.
Etstranged.

Just got back from Ou . Had to unwind and do what a shopaholic does best.

Guess who was i with?

Was compiling all my old passport-sized pics , and ..

voila!

I dont mind going back to the younger days, even if it means gaining back the chubbyness.

Words i need to hear from you to get me through the day.....

Racing against time

2008-05-04T13:53:00.010+08:00

I woke up this morning, felt the warmth of the sun caressing my face.

Still feeling groggy and contented amidst the soft fabric of my quilt.

I had a sudden thought.

365 days from now, i neednt worry about SPM no more.

Rid of the blue uniform, rid of school.

Then i start to wonder what wud i be doing, 365 days from now.

The ecstatic idea of being a 19 year-old Anthea. "ahem".

ohh.. i cant wait!

so, count the days with me!!

Here's my fav phrase from CLICK, which never fails to make me go "Aww".

" will u still love me in the morning?"

" forever and ever babe".

Butterfly kisses.

I beg your pardon?

2008-05-02T22:07:00.005+08:00

You know, i happened to be a very demanding , spoiled, impatient, temperamental, troublesome, and whiny girl, at times/most of the time. So, really, i'm trully impressed with those who stuck with me for as long as it seems. The required patience, tolerance and perseverance from them. And u know what? Leong Wei Ian happens to be one of the most succesful person in doing this. =).a heartfelt thank you from yours truly for everything, although thats really an understatement.

what am i gonna do without you lahh

love u bestie!

Resist, Anthea. RESIST.

Bad thing about having your personal com in ur room? especially when its smacked right on top of study table, that smug looking screen, making ur fingers itch , to curl themselves around the mouse and start clicking away. thats exactly what happened to me for the past few days, knowing the fact that my com's 24/7 on.

argghh.i don wanna study anymore! *wails*. what more with a bugging wisdom tooth, a sore throat, and annoying sneezes, purrrrfeeect timing. sheesh. how now brown cow??=/

I'm seroiusly on "binging mode" now. I eat when im stressed up, bored or flustered, moreover i gotta put my jogs on hold, due to exams and a lousy immnune system. so yeah , " obese alert".

Anyway just got back from Boathouse. At least that cheered me up, momentarily. After our sumptious main course, got myself some "oh-so-well-deserved" desserts.

say hello to the Afurgato Gelato!

vanilla ice cream topped with whip cream, complimented with eclairs, and poured on with hot espresso . noticed the canon thingie there? its suppose to light up with kahlua and brandy mixture in the lil pitcher and topple it over the ice cream. mmmm sinful! a must try.

the house special. tiramisu.

one of the best i've had so far.

i love peaches!

hmmm, i somehow lost the motivation or kiasuness to study for this term. Probably its cause i've had my greatest relief already, which was Sports day. but dyammit lah, the overall results are still pending. so ppl, shush with the speculations kay, ur making me feel all jitterish!.

Dinie says " you dont look one bit like an indian"

attempted pin up failed miserably.

Adrian says "albino indian lah".

-.-.....

Oucchhh.

2008-04-30T17:22:00.002+08:00

Bad news for chubster!

Been complaining about my sore gum days ago.

Momma finally brought me to the Orthodentist t'day.

Much as i've feared, the wisdom tooth's already struggling its way out.

Why the fear? i've heard enuf stories about the excruciating pain that "wise-tooth" can bring u.

And knowing me, words like pain and blood are enough to make me go light- headed.

So anyway, doc says no crunchy, chunky foodie for me, only to resort to a soft diet.

which means.... no chocs for me too!! =( heaven knows how long i ought to stick with that =(

*sneezes* . yet again. you know the saying that goes " when u sneeze, it means that someone is currently missing you". Perasan alright,but i'd rather choose to believe so rather than to start thinking this is early signs of me falling sick in no time. Its the best way to convince yourself that your still in perfect health condition, even u've been sneezing for like the gazillionth time today. *sneezes*
God bless me.

Instincts over rationales

2008-04-29T18:46:00.008+08:00

For some reasons,

this is a very special picture to me.

Eugene, Anthea, Adrian

We've been good pals since form 1.

We've jogged and trained for long distances and marathons since last year.

We've joined numerous runs together and supported each other through.

We've shared our victories ad laughter together.

Though being the only girl in between, im usually "victimized" when they gang up to tease.

The two guys will be always competing neck to neck in every race.

As for our final year, we were all coincidently captains for respective houses .

All in all,for our individuals

Eugene's got 2 gold 1 silver, i've got 1 gold 1 silver, Adrian's got 1 Gold 2 silver.

I missed out one for not participating the 400 m event.

Bonded by sports.

Prouda y'all. luvs.

These are the only pictures taken on the day,i think. courtesy of Li Wen.

Me & Kieran, my good looking cheerleader ;)

Spot the megaphones, they're all my/our hardwork kay.

Candidly taken by Kieran.

Proud to be.

Jie Yi & Li Wen

Thanks Jie Yi for helping me so much with the preparation

& u were great with ur runs.

Li wen, my very Hebat long distance runner. Good job on ur 1500 m! =)

Be my sweet escape

2008-04-28T22:40:00.003+08:00

I feel so restless and distracted today.And i havent the faintest idea WHY. just cant seem to pull myself together and start focusing on my BOOKS, dammit.that's why i had im here, adding yet another meaningless chapter.
I made a promise to myself,that im not gonna care anymore or at least pretend not to.
i dont wanna know nor inquire any further, im sick and tired of all the unnecessary woes ur giving me,and im mad at myself for letting it affect me i wish i can numb all my senses and feelings,cause thats the only way to protect myself,from being hurt or harmed in any other way.i wanna remain in blissful ignorance,in my own little comfort zone, enclosing me securely.

i gotta start learning to doubt promises made by ppl.
cause, realistically, they're mostly bulls*its.

i need to hear it from you, in my dreams tonight, to tell me it's all gonna be alright.

(;thea.

Its now or never.

2008-04-27T20:45:00.002+08:00

KEJOHANAN OLAHRAGA KALI KE -20 SMKDJ - YEAR 2008

I guess i shud say i gave it my all.

went all out to prepare and decorate my Hebat stuffz,

achieved my long distance events,

did my" "model" for ur hse marching thingie" , for the last year

cheered til my voice croaked for everyone in my team.

so i got one gold for 800 m and one silver for 1500 m.

nevertheless, all claimed i shud have pushed harder to aim for gold for 1500m instead.

like Eugene said, i look like i have no urge to win. haha.

my excuse? i was tired after being packed with 800m, marching and 1500m , back to back.

oh wells, my only consolence is that, the gold medal holder for 1500m is my teammate too.

so, aih, just let it go, we all do it for our house.

Anyways, i just wanna take this opportunity to thank all u wonderful HEBAT MEMBERS

for using every ounce of ur might and strength,

trickle every drop of sweat,

marchers and cheerleaders : to train and bear all the body aches

runners: to win very single one of the medals

supporters : to shout out loud with ur almighty lungs

u guys were absolutely awesome.

i earnestly thank you all for the effort shown.

As for whether we might win the overalls or not,

i guess it doesnt matter to me as much anymore.

for all i know,

just being in this together, and building up a bond and team spirit,

with my house members and also with other house members,

is one experience i'll never trade it with something else.

though its a pretty much messed up sports day as compared with prevoius years,

nevertheless, its helluva memorable one for me.

love y'all!

u peeps deserve a good treat for yerselves and a good night sleep.kudos.

Clutch the inner strength.

2008-04-23T22:42:00.002+08:00

This week is sheer HAVOC.The school's like a mad house.
Thanks to the school's "oh-so-disorganized-last-minute" planning.
Everyone's so uptight and stressfully competitive.
Been skipping classes the entire week,staying back in school,
without ample time to finish off my work, kept drifiting off to sleep midway.

I'm physically and mentally tired.
Very tired.

i'm just praying hard now that God will protect all my runners, cheerleaders, marchers alike, give them the spirit and determination to strive through, take good care of each and everyone of them, so everyone will be in optimum state on Sunday. Counting down, 3 more days till HEBAT kick butts on Sunday, and you'll go GREEN with envy ;).

It feels like heaving a big rock, only with the weight increasing gradually, pressing u down, squeezing what little air left in you.

................. because i hate the fact that time is irreversible.

................. because i dont think i can bear the disappointment.

All's said and done.

2008-04-18T22:05:00.003+08:00

I'll take it in my stride, one at a time.
So much workload and stuff to coordinate lately.
Piled up with stress and other unexpected problems.
Taken up way too much of my time, to focus on my priorities.
Now that all is resolved, what a relief.
Thank you all whose been persistently standin firm on my side with ur endless support ,

and for just being there.
Anyways, i believe im not the only one, what with Sports Day, just around the corner,

everyone's pretty bumped out themselves.
So, runners, jumpers, marchers and cheerleaders, gear up yourselves for the upcoming event.

Most importantly,to all HEBAT MEMBERS, defending champions of year 2007, let's not let the trophy slip off our hands now. Go hebat!

Keep striving Anabel! though it may be so bloody stressful and nerve wrecking, im sure u can do it =).but then again, don need work too hard lah, leave the first place for hebat ;). thanks girl for everything.x0x0.

I miss watching horror films. geee =/. I'm pretty keen on watching Congkak. hmm..

-i appreciate ur act in initiating an apology. thank you.

For Patrina..

2008-04-16T22:52:00.003+08:00

As you all have already heard the many stories going on about Pat's unfortunate encounter. So sudden and shocking.

Just wanna say, get well soon Pat! We're all dead worried and missing your jubilant self in school. Pol's gonna be really quiet without u around too.Hope to see u in school soon. Take care girl.

p/s: i'm not gonna lower myself to your standards of such acts.i'm sorry you lost your cool over this trivial matter. But a kind reminder, please have some self-preservation and dignity left within. Says who u've got the right to spam my name on your blog, condemning me, spoiling my name, when ur defiant self is at fault in the first place.And says who u've got the right to insult my juniors? So really, if you think ur still so damn right, i suggest its better if u build up ur guts to confront me instead of venting it out on a digital note. you ought to thank me for safeguarding your anonymity.that's all from me. =)

Have a good night sleeep people. sweetest dreams! =)

Say cheese for the rollling camera.

2008-04-15T22:20:00.002+08:00

I hate rain.
Especially when it's accompanied with thunder.
*shudders*
Thats when my lil chubby will cling on to me like there's no tomorrow.
Then i'd have to hold her on my lap while im doing my homework.
But thats not quite it.
I hate rain, because i think the rain's to be blame for alot of time wastage. grrr.

Anyhoeeeys, wanna know what happened today?
Eugene and i went for our jog at Lembah Kiara Park today after Chemistry Tuition. Splitted to do our own routes. We happened to bump into a few " tv programmers" shooting with a camera who started trailing behind us when we jog, though we splitted for different routes today. They explained that they're doing some sorta "healthy lifestyle" programme thingie for NTV 7, their second last episode, which will be showing on Monday, 7.30. So they were just catchin glimpses of people here and there, doing their "healthy" thingie, including people buying drinks from "Jenny's soya bean" after their workout. =)Then it started to drizzle lightly, before we even reached my place, it rained even harder, it started pouring and thundering when i reached my condo's clubhouse. So we were stucked there till 7, before the rain died down. Feeling tired and hungry, i was only greeted with nothing but a lousy dinner and a blank tv screen , cause astro is always affected by thunder. geesh. so much for enjoying my dinner while watching my fav series.so much for a tuesday.

Catch me if i fall.

2008-04-15T21:13:00.023+08:00

LAST SATURDAY - MAC 2008

Not bad for a BUKU ATURCARA.

Nicole & Anthea

Murid Terbaik Tingkatan 4, 2007

Pendidikan Moral =p.

"Oh so civilised and moral-ized"

That sweet stuff's 17th birthday aka Candice Sow Khai Lyne.

Held at Tony Roma's later in the evening, two days before her actual day:)

All the She's of the night.

Gene & Thea.

Wei Sheng looks like Juan here!

Indescribable bond. All the way since Form 1 =)

M'boys.

Post Confirmation, that makes us

Denise and Michael.

haha.

My princess' birthday's coming up!!

<3.>

Tell me what do you see in my eyes.

2008-04-13T00:12:00.011+08:00

MORE PICTURES AND LESS WORDS.

A lil addition from my Sister's Convocation.

Mama and cheche.

Aww

Grand finale, with her model.

che che's collection.

Prettyyy.
Her Sneaky sister.

Paternal and maternal cousins.

I thank God for them, every single day.

The irony of things.

People come to me to confide their problems.

I seem to be able to help them sort their dilemmas out

or casually advise them wat to do to resolve matters.

Hypocritically, i'm pretty much a failure when it comes to my own relationship turmoil.

Speak for yourself?

- Thea,Chyinwei.

Ooops, ur mask slipped.

2008-04-10T23:14:00.002+08:00

It just hit me today, that im a very obliging person.
Sometimes, most of the time, its not very good.
Cause you give more than you receive and u care more rather than being cared of.
That's how you'll end up with more bruises and white hair.
A very good advice would be learning to be selfish,saves u from all the woes.
But that's not very good now is it?
After all, we're taught otherwise.

My biggest flaws: Fickle minded and indecisive.
I don't know what is it that i want.

Anyhoooeeyssss, i'm only about a half an hour early. Just wanna say,

Happy 17th Birthday Rui Sheng!
May u have many happy returns of the day.=)

Just let it go, Anthea.

2008-04-09T01:49:00.003+08:00

I clock 2.00 am now.
Just finished rushing through my homework.
Feeling so random and wide awake, prolly its the caffeine's kicking in.
Thought of rambling something, while waiting for "melatonin" to multiply so i can just shut my eyes and drift off to sleep.

Yesterday, while we were all busy doing our hw in class,
i asked Avin, " Avin, what do u do when ur mad? "
He caught me off guard by replying,
" i scream at my teddy bear" , nonchalantly.
Haha, so cute laaaa, typical Avin, never failing to cheer me up.
His reply seemed to be stucked in my head.
Every now and then, when i think about it,
i cant help but let a smile escape from the corner of my mouth =)

Gah,, i 've been craving for egg tarts for days!!
But i cant seem to find a decently delicious wan.
John King's sucks by the way.
All u kind souls out there, do share your findings :).

Ooo,its currently 2.30 am. I'm still hanging on fine. Something's really not right.
Two things are for sure,
1. i'll need sugar rush to snap me out of my dopeyness tom
2. i'll be on auto mode,either that or i'll be especially lame tomorrow.

All that, in the name of , sleepy.

Of hourglass and white roses.

2008-04-07T21:18:00.002+08:00

I'm a pro when it comes to procrastination.

I'm really good at it, when it comes to wasting time.

In fact, i think im starting to get better and better at it.

Someone, anyone, just haul me outta it.

Please.

As you all have already heard today,

Our senior of year 2005, Andrew Yap just passed away yesterday morning.

It took me by such a shock since my sister only told me that he was in serious coma

when she visited him with her friends last Wednesday.

I never knew it would be such a sudden death.

And even though, i don really know him,

but even a stranger like me could feel tears brimming up at the break of news.

so let us all just pray for him, to rest in peace and

most importantly, all those who are dear to him, that they will grieve in a positive way

and to know that he will be safe under the Lord's care.

Therefore, all my beloved friends out there,

please do take extra care of yourselves,

knowing things always come about unpredictably.

I really cannot bear the thought of losing anyone of you

just like that.

Nope, i don think i can handle it at all.

so, save me from that torment.

Random observation:

i always thinks guys somehow look better after getting their hair cut.

sounds weird i know, but it just looks more "appealing" to me.=P

DENISE

2008-04-06T19:00:00.030+08:00

Yesterday, was my Confirmation as a Roman Catholic
For those of you, who are still having those question marks in your head...

Confirmation is like one of the few important stages in the Catholic faith.

When your born, u go through Baptism, then Holy Communion,
then Confirmation, then Matrimony and so on.

So for y'all non christians out there, u can take it that its like

UPSR, PMR, SPM, STPM, DIPLOMA..

So in other words, Confirmation is like the "SPM STAGE" in my catholic faith =)

The transition part into adulthood.

so yeah, its a really important and meaningful event for me =)

Sis insisted that i use her white Daisy.

Ma thinks baby's breath looks nicer.

Hence , the two species on my hair.=)

Candid shot by Ma.

bridesmaid, laughs.

Off white

Reminiscing

Lovely confirmation candles

Everyone was dressed in white, all "holy" and "goody-two-shoe" looking.
The archbishop joked that it looked like a MASS WEDDING. haha
i gotta agree with that, as a matter of fact.
We've got 76 confirmants, counting in about 40 plus from the church of Jesus Caritas.

Most of us will have our confirmation names, which are names found in the bible or a saint's name.

i've used the same as my baptism name, DENISE.

Sandra!

oops, Timothy's mum got into the picture.

David , attempting to look "yeng"

My facilitators came too!

Meet, Eddie and Priscilla

Thaddeus Tan, Anthea Denise Chua, David Elijah Kee, Nicholas Jamie TanJeremy Greenhall and Sandra Yap

doesnt it look like mass wedding to u? ;)

My two bodyguards.
Noone can beat Thaddeus' degree of lameness.

Flanked by two lovely cousins.

Elaine Nevis and Natasha Nevis.

Nicholas says Peace.

Thaddeus, David, Jimmy,Natsaha, Anthea, Nicholas, Jeremy and Sandra

My young Godmother, Kristie

haha, David, peculiar way of smiling.

Giggles

Avin's mum and sis were also there!

Sandra, Anthea, David, Nicholas and Jimmy.

I heart Sandra!=)

After mass, my family and my God family had dinner at Mum's Place, Damansara Perdana.

Courtesy of their invitation .

Havent been back there for years, food and atmosphere's still as good as ever.

The bubur chacha there is a MUST TRY.

Personalized cupcakes , handbaked from Kristie and Belle.

Gifts from my God family .

A heartful thank you for everything!

Im Confirmed!

I'm really gonna miss the Confirmation Class of 2007.

You betcha, We're the bomb! =)

Biggest thank you to Aunty Deborah and Aunty Mary Anne too.

Spent my entire weekend on a shopping spree, all credits goes to Daddy.I'm a happy girl.loves.

Gilrs just wanna have fun.

2008-04-05T00:05:00.029+08:00

Phew. Man am i exhausted. Just got back from church. Decorating the place with doves for our big Confirmation Event tomorrow. I love being around them bunch of people, my church friends that is. Those are the time's i can joke incredulously and laugh uncontrollably. haha. love u peeps lahh.

Anyway here's a sequence of what's the latest, after my "grudgy" post. I'm, fine now people, appreciate ur concern, don worry, i know i'll always have u guys' back :).

Sunday - KL marathon. Everyone did a great job. Even by just completing the run itself wud be a great achievement already i shud say. I wanna take a lil credit for myself here.... *ahem* i for one did better than i expected . i actually aimed for top 50 only, or any placing better than last year's for that matter. But i ended up with lucky no. 26! woot. stuffed myself with mc d, coke, and ice cream after that , guilt free =PP. Congrats to the rest of y'all too, esp the 21km runners as well. U guys were amazing;).

I just realized i dint manage to get a picture with the rest of the runners. so much for cherished memories. tsk tsk.

What does the colour Orange signifies? =)

My Sista's Graduation Gig from Raffles Institue of Designing at J.W Marriot.

Family and i checked in the hotel on Wed night already. As soon as i came home from school on Thurs,went to grab the flowers, went to get my hair done while my dad was getting his hair cut. Packed, drove our way down to J.W Marriot again. Yew Loong was already there. left his bag in our room and we walked across to Pavilion , while Mum and Dad went down to the ballroom to help my sis get her stuff ready.Rushed back to the hotel at 5.45 to get ready and only managed to be done by 6.30 =).

Poser 1

Just got back from Pavilion

Poser 2

Yew Loong posing with my sister's poster

Cocktail reception starts with food to fill up our grumbling tummy, while people mile about to check out all the 13 graduating designer's exhibit. Sister's friends/supportes , cousins, sister's boyfren's parents were all there. Then the convocation starts. Followed by 2nd round of finger food. Then the highlight of the night, Fashion Show. Unfortunately, Amber Chia wasnt modelling this year. We watched the models strut their stuff on the runway, while whispering comments to each other. Pretty impressive collection by the designers this year, all with their respective themes.

The miling crowd before entering the ballroom

My sister's collection's theme : Disco - 60's - 70's

Part of the Portfolio

Pig partners in crime =)

Hairdo

We - the whole " crew" then we went up to our rooms, to have photo session. honestly, i have this weird feeling or a sense of deja vu as if my sis is getting married instead of graduating, what with all that hoopla going on =). Then, in our formal clothes still, we headed for supper. 3 tables filled with food and looking- out- of- place people. Yummylicoius hawker food. Later in the night, Yew Loong and i headed to Starbucks to "yam cha" instead of Lecka since we don wanna stink of Shisha. Already feeling half awake, we finally went back to the hotel at 1.00 am.

Flattered with 3 bouquets

The designer with her posters

The Graduate

Haha, i think she looks nice in this one. With her lil mr. teddy graduate.

Che che with her two wholesome kor kors.

really, u mess with her, u mess with them =)
dad looks like he's pouting =P

Sis friends and our cousins were suppose to spend the night with us too. But unfortunately, most of em had work and college early the next morning, and only Yew Loong stayed behind. So our rooms were still pretty spacey in fact. Mum and dad in one room. Sis , me and Yew Loong in the next connecting room. Woke up next morning, went to have brunch somewhere near Petaling Street. Great chicken rice and beef ball soup =). Then mum and sis went to buy some stuff while YL and i killed time at Petaling Street. Haven been there for years, felt so odd and unfamiliar altogether. Went back to the hotel, YL and i managed to take a sneak peek at the hotel pool before grabbing our bags and we fled back to PJ with dad driving. We bumped into a demonstration on the way. geesh. i think its by the PAS ppl.

Picture's really outta focus.It's the best i can do, catching the scene from my 25th floor room view. But try to squint at the line of bodies there. They're models lying down on the ground in front of Pavilion.

The respective designer's namecard.

Most of the pictures are either in my cousins' cam or kristie's cam, and a few of em shud be in pig's phone. so yeah, to be continued =)

Grudgy.

2008-03-29T12:17:00.002+08:00

Unfortunately, i dont happen to be the most patient person on earth
or a person with an extraordinarily good temper for that matter
So mind u, if u cant deal with ppl like me whose got a pretty limited stretch of patience
stop ticking me off , or stay far away from me if u don want me to start disliking you
As much as u think ur being funny, its not funny anymore, its annoying.
so yeah, if u don wanna get it from me, please be more aware of my facial expressions
i don wanna feel sorry for u for being bombarded without knowing why.

i'm really mad. and no, im not alright. i doubt even chocs can make wonders for me now.

it pains me so much to know that u still have no idea how much this matters to me. even when your attempting to compensate now,it doesnt cover or erase that disappointment and hurt u've imprinted in my memory. so destructive .it doesnt make everything okay , just because you say so.

Guilt.

2008-03-22T22:21:00.004+08:00

What a long day.
Been out for 12 hours. Ten to ten man.

An unexpected outcome.
Headed to Ou to meet up with Wei Sheng after tuition.
Then, met up with Candice. Loitered around everywhere while waiting for Eugene.
We were supposed to grab a few "sports" stuff and juz ciao after an hour or two.
Suddenly, Candice mentioned about the British Council's Education Fair at Kl Convention Centre.
Spontaneously, we decided to go too. More aimlessly walking, before Eugene came and we followed Candice's mum home to get her driver to fetch us to the convention centre..

After the edu fair, we walked over to KLCC.Did a lil bitof shopping and grabbed a bite. Wei Sheng left with his friends , while Candice went to meet up with her parents, and Eugene and i grabbed the LRT home. Walked over to King Crab to have dinner with my family and friends.And now, im finally home. phew. I feel as bloated as a pig. Kept stuffing myself with food today yet failing to jog due to the rain this evening. sinful. Unfortunately,we were all too occupied to snap pictures today =)

My current crave pangs tells me i needa go to these places soon....

1. Boathouse (last nite's dinner really made me long for it again )

They've got fantastic mouth watering mushroom soup! im telling ya. Sumptuos creative cooking, and of course irresistable desserts.. mMmmM. Affurgato Ice cream.

2. William's - Soft shell crab fried rice! & i've heard enuf from Eugene bragging about their cheese naans. =/

3. Bakerzin! - Penne Al Pollo, Warm Choc cake, and and their dessert Tapas.

4. Bangsar's Nirwana Maju - Mango Lassi & Fried Sotong!

Weight gain alert! =P Seriously, no wonder i can never succeed in losing weight .*shakes head*
how laaa...

Congrats to our school's 4x100 team. You guys were awesome today =) Did yourselves and our school proud. Heng Kit, Boyce, Eugene and Jie yang clinched the silver medal .

I've been doing alot of thinking lately. Be it things in the past or things to come.But anyway i know i ought to let out this word hanging on the tip of my tongue, or else i'd be boggled by it till heaven knows when. i cant help feeling i've neglected a fair amount of things lately and also previously, and i felt like i've wheezed through this past few weeks, with only me myself and i in true focus, while letting some important things and ppl blur past me without me realizing. and i feel bad about it.

I'M SORRY.

spare me the benefit of the doubt, will you?

It could have been me.

2008-03-14T22:33:00.003+08:00

Mummy told me about the latest circular around the Condo this morning.
Apparently,there were like two robbery cases last night.
Right here, in Taman Tun, in my very surroundings.
A resident from my Condo was almost robbed at my back guardhouse last night, if it wasnt because of the guard's intervention.
A lady was approached by another lady seeking for donation at the Maybank shoplots outside my place. She was led to the 2nd floor of the shoplot, for some reason, and was accosted by four men, lost alll her belongings.

Dyamm, i dint know Taman Tun can be so unsafe nowadays.
The freakiest thing is that, i realized this very morning, i could have been the victim las night.
Could have....What a close escape.
or WE could have been victims. Ana and i that is.

Thinking that four of us actually walked all the way to Rasta in the dark, by the highway.
What more, Ana and I were about to walk our way home too, if Pak Sen weren to fetch us home.

So ANYWAY, i was meaning to thank God, and of course Chi Ming for offering the ride in the first place , and Pak Sen to take the trouble to drop us back. Or else... there's the odds that i might not be blogging here and now. Amen.

So yeah, boys, u've got ur thank yous from me. I honestly meant to take the initiative to post this earlier, even without ur mentioning, just abit delayed thats all. :)

Anyhoeeeysss... word of caution.
all u peeps out there, esp u Taman Tun Fellas, keep a look out, if ur loitering out late.

cross ur fingers!

Contentment.

2008-03-13T22:43:00.007+08:00

Foursome night out.

Dinner at Penang Village.

A stroll in the night

To Rasta.

Random picture with a random fact:

Nicole tan's shorter than me by 1cm! =Pp.

But its okay, i still like having u around =)

As usual, im blogging for a day's delay again.
Anyway yesterday was.....

TRINA NG HUI EN'S 17TH BIRTHDAY!

Reaching the 7th year of friendship, love her to bits and pieces :).
One of the very few long time friends that i treasure very much.
Also, one of the very few that can stand my " chatterbox-erism ".
Im guessin what u wished for already came true, well, prolly half of it.
Knowing u'll be wearing ur new Armani top to sleep last night, u know u did =p.
Cut the crap, trina is trina. And thank goodness i love her for that. xoxo.

A few of the many faces of the newly-turned 17 in various years and occasions.
Haha, the Form 2 faces.

Jw Marriot.

2006. Sports day.

2007.

Trina had her celebration at One Bangsar's Rick Cafe Casablanca.

Lovely place. Pictures are with Rhema.

But anyway i had a sudden urge of camwhoring when i got home. tee hee :D.

So, bear with me .

Im done for now! Have a good night sleep y'all.

I know i will.

i dont say it

2008-03-11T00:52:00.005+08:00

Just got back from Makbul with Mark, Chi Ming and Wes.
Pretty konked out and tired.
Ever since Rasta shifted, its been pretty quiet around Taman Tun at night.
Here's a better visualization of my pale stricken face, forced to smile for Wes' "unapproved-by-me-samsung-phone-camera" =).

I was jolted with a random recollection of a dream i had months ago. Involuntarily stirred up something i've been trying to push behind my mind all this while. i feel the emo-ness creeping in again. so malicious. oh yeah , i owe it all to you. big time. lights out, lets hope it doesn reoccur in my dreams tonight. cause if it does, i'd rather not sleep. nuff rambled. say ur bedtime prayers and hit the sacks.

Cant seem to wipe that smile off my face ;)

2008-03-10T19:04:00.039+08:00

More of a belated one actually.

Well yesterday was Avin's surprise birthday party.

Held at Elaine's place.

Conspired with His Mum.

They say, pictures paint a thousand words.

Hence, u can start gawking at the pictures now for further illustrations.

Awww...lovebirds.

Ladies of Taman Tun

Avin's Huge Birthday Card.

I suppose he's got a pretty colouful bday this year =)

Another pair of serious chatterboxes.

Nicole & Eric

in perfect order, just like how they're seated in front of me in class.

" Family portrait"

Chem pal

My "suspected" sister in school.

We are seroius chatterboxes, with an unbelieveblle degree of lameness.

Avin & Justin

Avin's mummy got us 2 dozen of Apple donuts

which were gobbled up for Supper.

kee chong!

pretty boy

Anabel, taking charge.

"Mafia" in progress

The darling boy who never fails to make me smile

Bonded with no room for gaps in between

Presented with Foursome love.

Hope u're having a sweet tooth Avin!

Quartet

She bites, when provoked.

picture perfect.

4some <3 align="center"> i've got her back

Dont mess with me

ouch, Anabel, ur heavy.

joke.=)

Spot that piece of art hanging from his neck.

Thanks to mua *ahem* =)

Pigs for life! oink.

Freaky, i know.

Need i say more?

WE ALL LOVE AVIN!

Now allow me to express my pride.

Mama, sis and i went for a real good shopping spree yesterday.
A rewarding therapy for me to relieve all that stress from sports and exams.
We covered Sungei Wang, Lot 10, Pavilion, Cats Whiskers, then One Utama.
I think we've practically walked like 4km ?
Admittedly and guiltily, i've spent the most today.
But the best thing among all is that, I've finally got my New Balance running shoes *grins*.
Its awesome-ly light and soo mee! ;)
Spotted it with Eugene already on Fri, finally brought my " bank" today to pay for it.
Anyway, i especially gotta thank my daddy for being the main sponsor ;).

As adrian calls it, Chubster :)

Free & Easy

Envy me

I think Eugene's gonna get the same too, hopefully not cheaper. =/

off to bed now!! all those picture uploads are hell troublesome for me. grrr.
nitey nite.

Just keep running, running, running...

2008-03-07T23:18:00.004+08:00

Adrian, Wei Ian, Eugene and I went for our jog at Bukit Kiara today.
Predictably, adrian and ian were late.
Made me woke up at an unearthly hour of 7 am in the morning, for a SCHOOL HOLIDAY and waited 1 hour and 15 mins for them to reach my place. ish.
Jogged to Bukit Kiara and met up with Mr obese there.
Did our rounds, had our soya beans, went to Lembah Kiara park to do some stretches.
Despite having jogged together for countless times before, we've only decided to take a few snapshots together today.

Doing our thang.

Iannie

Fuiyooh, adrian.

Ee-yen Anthea Mr.Obese

Wei Ian, for peace.

My mummy taught me that girls should sit politely.

Preparing to do our crunches

is he shielding from the sun or plainly sleeping ?=/

Smk Tropicana

Dj representatives for Mssd Road Run, dated 2 months back.

Random Fact of the day:

Kissing helps to burn calories. Apparently, 29 calories a minute.

According to Japanese Researches, kissing helps to control fever.

It was said that the intense lip action relieved the sniffles and sneezing of allergies by relaxing the body and slowing the production of histamine, which is responsible for allergy symptoms.

Source: " Female Magazine " =P.

So yeaahh people, just kiss ur way to " better health" ;).

We broke the ice.

2008-03-07T22:38:00.006+08:00

KAYM Confirmation Camp of year '91.
Melaka's Good Shepherd Seminarian Church.

I gotta say, although making it there, meant sacrifing our weekends to study for our exams, im glad it was worth every minute of it. Although being kiasu ppl like us, we actually stayed up when the lights were off at the dorm, to study till 3 am, haha, mainly joanne and i. During the bus rides, everyone from diff school's were actually having physics, bio or chem books by their laps, munching away while bombarding each other with questions distractedly. 2nd night? that was one helluva fun night. books aside, everyone just stayed up till the wee ours in the morning again outside the dorm, overdozed in lameness, cracked up in endless laughter. Of course, it was also a very enriching experience for our christian faith. Most of all, we managed to spend the last hours at Jonker Street, stuffing ourselves with chicken rice balls and shopping. Though much was still undone.Man, im so gonna go back there again .

The Girl's Dorm.

It feels like u've got 15 sisters sleeping in a room, like how they always show it in the movie.

I was tryin to study my bio, but to no avail, apparently.

Sandra!

Half a candid, after church service.

Say hi to David.

My primary schoolmate who used to sit next to me.

We went for Sunday Mass at Malaysia's oldest church.

St Peter's, built in 1710.

The altar.

One of the church's most amazing thing.

Tania, Anthea, Sandra, Joanne, Natasha.

The Venue.

My bible class and bus ride buddy =).

Joanne who shares my passion for food

Tania, the princess .

In short, we've had a blast!!

Cheerios ppl!

Too bad, we're not gonna have Sunday School no more =/.

sweet victory.

2008-02-26T10:54:00.004+08:00

Backtracckkk.
Pardon me for the much delayed post, due to circumstances like
1. the effect of the walk left my whole body numb till Thurs, trust me, i cudnt feel my legs and ass.
2. i was away at Melaka for my church confirmation camp during the weekends ( next post)
3. not to forget exams were going on till today.

so finally, i can BREATHE now.

26/2/08 - Second day of Mssd - Memorable day.

i flooped my 800m yesterday, desolated and feeling unwell after seeking consultation from the doc, i was almost close to backing out from my 5km event due today. What more, i've only known about the power walking technique like 4 days ago?? it was alll so disorientated. After much insistence from Pn tan and much persuasion from Eugene, i came to a decision. By hook or by crook, im gonna just finish up the whole 12.5 boring laps , win or lose.

in the early morning, i was so unprepared and caught off guard, when i had to skip the registration and was asked to run out to the track to get ready right away. i dint expect it to be so soon u see. My mind was in a turmoil to the extend that i totally forgotten to pin up my number. Thankfully, Eugene was already running up to help me get my number before i even reached the bleachers.

Once the gun fired , and the competitors around me were already breezing past me .
I was suddenly thinking, what on earth was i doing there. What a huge joke to be competing, when all of them seem to know what they were doing, walking the right technique, and me? hell, i was fumbling,stumbling, struggling, dunno what technique i was walking, be it hen-like, duck-like or i dunno what it was, one thing's for sure, i cudnt wait for it to be over. Overwhelmed with fatigue and my sides were hurting, if it wasn because of the persistent cheers and support from my parents , loud support from my fellow dj-ians, i swear i would have just collapsed and gave up. I finally managed to overtake the 2nd girl which i was sticking so closely behind , exerted my maximum strength for the last and secured a 2nd placing.Thinking back, im still pretty uncertain if all that happened was unreal. All i know is, to me, its like a frightening experience.

Aftermath- Unforgettable moment
i was so overjoyed when i completed it that i started crying, PBSM membered thought i was hurt. haha. It's like all the hard work and all that i've been through myself broughtme this far, right to this moment. that instinctive cry was really unexplainable.

i struggled to regain composure, knowing i must be making a big fool outta myself and i don wanna be so over dramatic. nonetheless, when i started walking back to the bleachers, and saw the faces of my parents and friends, i started tearing uncontrollably again. I hastily choke them back and went on to embrace my parents and Eugene.

Thank you all u Dj-ians for ur moral support! i couldnt have done it without those cheers, seriously.

I especially wanna thank my " personal trainer", ahem,Eugene Lai Yong Wen for
- your never ending support
- ur consistent faith in me
- comforting me when i was so despaired over my 800 m
- training with me since last year
- pushing me over the limits when im so tired that i feel like giving up easily
- bringing counter pain for me today though my muscles still hurt like crap after that
- for helping me to warm up and stretch till my legs shiver, cause u've obvoiusly learnt ur lesson yesterday during ur 10 km
- helping me to contact my parents when my event started
- sacrificing ur time to support me today even when ur not running
- being one of the loudest to cheer me on
- remembering to help me pin on my number even when i myself forgotten al about it
- guiding me throughout all these
- being there.

Owe it all to you. Thanks yoo brother.

Also, not forgetting my parents, ur presence and support really mattered.
For all i know, it does make a difference.

Ramblings

2008-02-17T15:58:00.003+08:00

Twice as much work, half as much time.
Fatigue. Stress.

Sometimes, i feel like i've had enough.
Thinking how would my high school life be, not being confined within prefect's responsibilities.
Sometimes, i wish i'm not currently in Malaysia.
Sometimes, i wish i can just laze around, and spend my time, reading novels and doing nothing else.
Sometimes, i feel so sorry for myself.

My best therapy when im stressed out ..........
Shopppinggggg!

I just found out im gonna be away in Malacca for church camp the weekend before our First Term Exams starts. Tell me about it. =/

By the way people, if any of you wanna sell off ur Form 4 Accounts Textbook, please holler, its apparently in desperate need now.

I love you but I'm not in love with you.

2008-02-14T22:48:00.004+08:00

Happy 17th Birthday Tow Jen!

Happy Valentine's day to all too!

Valentine's Day 2008.

Every year, with different expectations, different surprises.

Half an hour before Valentine's Day, Girlfriends dropped by my place, gave flowers to my sis and I.

Beautiful daisies surrounded by Baby's Breath.

Ever so sweet and thoughtful.

This year, no drama-rama gifts sold by wtv societies or clubs in school.

thanks to the headmistress.

Expectedly, it's pretty much a quiet V day in school.

Someone slip this onto my class table discreetly in the morning.

Guess whats in it

lovelyyyy.

there's even a note tucked in that lil envelope
Thanks Chi Ming.

This one's by Ian!

Need i say more about him? =)

Love at first sight

They look simply irresistable

This one's from Anaaaa

Thanks Girlfriend.

To wrap the day up, Juan called up and did his solo performance on the phone.

Strummed his guitar and sang " its all about you"

awww, thanks bimbo =).

You know, i've a silly feeling that im gonna dream of cupcakes tonight!!

There she goes with her crave pangs.

Love intensified by absence.

2008-02-12T21:37:00.000+08:00

woot. check this out. look what my "beloved chem pal" found out for me =)>. thanks yo.

————JUNE BABY ————-

You’ve got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around.
You love to make new friends and be outgoing.
You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner.
a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection.
You have a great choice in films, and may one day
become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck

You've got the looks for it.

You bet'cha.

hmmmm, i wonder how much of this is true ehh?? ;)

nevertheless its still good to be reassured of a June babe's nature =P.

Anthea is trying.

She's trying not to be constantly straddled with the loss of time.

She's trying to be more optimistic.

She's trying to be more self-reliant.

She's trying harder to work toward her goals, although she's practically on her own.

She's trying not to dwell so much in the past, but focus on whats next to come.

Hence, let your judgements take a backseat for the time being.

" Let she who is without sin cast the first stone"

A ratty year full of cheeeseeee in a "cat " town.

2008-02-11T11:50:00.000+08:00

A lil glimpse of the town , where my dad grew up with his 8 siblings, and where my mum grew up with her 12 siblings. And thats why Cny in Kuching is always rewarding for me :). Red Envelopes from both sides yo =).

I love the fact that they still preserve the structures built by the British during their colonial times.

The Town.

Friendship Park - The place where i jogged in the evening.

Doesnt that look like a Fort ?

By the way, in Kuching, u can see the name of James Brooke plastered on all sorts of buildings.

Classic.

It was said that particular road was where the bishop used to head to the church, in the those days .

Historic Tree. I like.

The Museum.

Chinese New Year Eve.

I gotta say, i've witnessed the most amazing display of fireworks this year.

Standing high at my Aunt's 7th floor balcony, at the stroke of 12, EVERY HOUSE was putting off fireworks , such a grand display of colourful sparks.

The whole Kuching was alarmed with fireworks to the extend that i dint have enough wishes to go with every pop =) , to the extend that the whole street and highways around the town was Fogged up, like haze when my cousin fetched me out around midnight to hit the club, Mojo.

Dolls are girls' best friends.

The night we headed off to my cousin-in-law's pub - Barzing.

First day of Chinese New Year.

11 Houses of visiting, tiring but rewarding ;)

Second day of Cny.

Dad drove us to the Resort owned by Holiday Inn, Damai Resort.

Nostalgic. Havent been back there for 13 years.

My pampered nephew - Justin.

Fourth day of Cny.

Home sweet home.
Miss my lil chub shooo much.

Anthea's feeling very reminiscent. sigh.

Whatever makes me happy

2008-02-06T19:50:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year 2008 !!

Have a ratty year ahead, although their nothing but a bunch of gross rodents.

You know what? I kinda miss fooling around with fireworks. ( who cares if its illegal. sssh ).

I've got a feeeling i wont be getting much Ang Pows this year, because i've literally already spent about 1k on myself here in Kuching, even though CNY barely started.

Oh well, i guess its a fair trade for a shopaholic like me =P.

Random facts of the day

- i curled my hair 5 days ago

-i miss my Foursome too! even though i just got off the phone with Ana .

- i cant quite place the empty feeling within.

- Cny also so stressful lahh.

- The song " Tonight i wanna cry " by Keith Urban so defines me, emotionally not literally.

- I just realized i might not be able to live alone next time, considering the fact that these past few nights, when i was sleeping alone the apartment, i kinda freaked out in the middle of the night

- I miss KL and my lil Princess!

Showered with love.

2008-02-01T22:28:00.000+08:00

weee... guess what peeps, i just touched down in Kuching International Airport like less than 3 hours ago.

Never felt better being close at home.

Though i guarantee u peeps i'll be back being more obese than ever, cause u know why?

Kuching's one helluva place for superbly good and cheap food!

Currently staying in one of my Aunt's few new houses, with a room all to muaself, at least until my sis comes on Mon anyway.

Looking forward to the remaining 9 days :)

Meanwhile, dont miss me too much =).

I'll keep u guys updated with pictures along the way, just to enlighten and broaden up those who are still stuck in their primitive perception. ( *cough* esp ppl like eugene who thinks ppl in kuching lives in long houses and uses sampans. tsk tsk . )

get out of your sejarah textbooks yo.

Lately, i cant help feeling so contented, showered with care and love, esp by the few of them who hung around me lately. Bringing me a kind of cheerfulness that had my woes and worries took a backseat.Naming a few...

Wei Ian, the "always-will-be-there-to-count-on" buddy, stuck with me through my countless ups and downs. Always a call away to be patiently listening to my whines and complains. My confidante and bestest buddy.

Nicole Tan, my so called " look-alike-twin", because we have countless things of the same kinds and teachers thought we were sisters and we can never run out of things to argue about everyday. Although her contagoius talkative manner is the main cause of me being distracted in class, nevertheless the loony her can always manage to break that frown of yours.

Anabel Yee, ;)one of my beloved foursome and great girlfriend. Spent countless foursome moments together. Been there for as long as my entire form 4 year, and there's yet another year to come. I'm sure jon, u and i will have fun working our foursome charm for our class drama

Eugene Lai, my "personal trainer". haha. havent manage to say a proper thank you for ur time spent and great support plus motivation to push me through all that long distance jog. though we only settled for top 20 instead of top 15 during the prevoius marathon. Although ur always full of bullsh*t, and always like to finish up half of my drinks or food, ur company's still very much appreciated =)

Adrian Sankar, jelutong rainchecks, marathons, hebat pratices, to co hebat captains, to making up silly handshakes, to laughing at my pronunciation , to annoying and teasing me, ur always there. unfortunately. But i still thank God u were=)

Justin Loh, my beloved chem partner and now physics partner, despite always liking to blame me for whatever that went wrong on his side, he kept me entertained during chemistry and
physics . and those retarded chemistry experiment moments too. Thanks retard.

To whomever i might have left out too, u guys do have ur respective places in my heart=)

Met my sis' guy for the last time, last night. Good luck in ur future undertakings Ian. Take Care and Enjoy Perth. At least i think i dont owe u that christmas hug now and at least i managed to have a pic with u ( although i was in peejays =/) . Tra la!

Dont hate me because I dont like you

2008-01-28T23:23:00.000+08:00

Im sorry i ditched my blog.
Been caught up with far too many stuffs lately.

WHILE I WAS GONE,
briefly summing it up,
- i planned my sis's 20th bday party with my supposedly " brother-in-law *
- i signed up for MSSD road run and met Gui Fen during the trial run.
- i was sick and still am , unfortunately one week before the due marathon =/
- my little princess's was in The Star today, when she got spotted to join the" beauty pageant " contest during a dog show last week.
- i havent had chocolates in ages.
- im leaving for kuching on friday for 10 whole days.

__________________________________________________________________

i dont know why i bothered to put up with it for so long. thinking back made me feel nothing more like an idiot. gullible enough not to know i've been blamed for my intentions which were ever so innocent enough. i still cant get over my amazement at how ppl can have a total abrupt 180 degrees change in a mere short time into a selfish, egoistic creep .incredulous. u have no idea what u've put me through. what u've done and what u've said, they've hurt me far enough to the extend that i wont even cling on to the tiniest thread of hope now but only sheer disappointment. so take ur memories and leave. cause i dont need them anymore. all that was said appeared nothing more than casual promises made now. harsh words u said rang shrilly in the back of my mind although they were meant to be forgottten. new stabs of pain over and over again over wounds that are yet to be healed. shame on you. i hope u still have some conscience and self preservation left within you. im sorry i have to do this but i just cant seem to hold it all in anymore. screw it all. you asked for it.

Thanks for bearing with me ppl while i vent it all out.

ps: i dont think i know you anymore.

Oh Hail The New School Day

2008-01-02T22:30:00.000+08:00

I was having lunch with Mummy and Couzie at Midvalley today.

Suddenly, i heard a child's voice sullking,

"Mummy , i dont wanna go to school".

Turned my head, saw a cute chubby boy pouting like this.

How i wish i could say the same

Those were the days where i would always cry my heart out, depressed that hols just ended, emo0ing

about not getting to play with my cousins anymore, and come up with all sorts of excuses to skip

school, one day before SCHOOL DAY starts.

On a brighter note, its after all our last high school year aint it

so why dont we just pull our way through and savour the " Form 5 bits".

oh by the way ppl,

Lee Wei Sheng's finally coming to SMKDJ tom!

say hello, to our new mate and my old time close bud. :)

see u peeps in less than 12 hrs time.

A new year and a year older

2008-01-01T19:51:00.000+08:00

I havent a tiniest idea why the thought of a new year kinda depresses me.
Frankly speaking.
Its like a feeling u gotta go through another 365 days again.
Anxiety kicking in, not knowing whats gonna happen in those 365 x 24 hours and knowing hols had finally reach THE FULLSTOP.
Pardon me for the "party-pooper-ish" headstart.
This year, im gonna drop the New Year's Resolution. Half knowing, i'll never manage to keep em till the end of the 365th day. So really, why bother? =P.

Anyhooeeysss, back to New Year's Eve.
Mum had a big homecook dinner at home. Sumptious, finger licking good meal. Thats why i only joined The Gang at 9-ish after i scraped off the last bit on my plate =).

Fruit Punch!

(it was so good, u can literally feel the punch )

Sausages, lamb and rib-eye steaks, spicy seafood spag, roasted chicken wings, salad and minced meat pie

we forgotten about the wine though, =/

The Curve it was.
Needless to say, the crowded-ness there was like tuna packed in the tin.
Throngs of people can merely drown and suffocate you, probably die of asphyxiation. okay, that might sound a lil overboard, but seriously, so pening lah.
Worst than las year, i guess ppl like me never learn their lessons, still chose to join the squishy-crowded-ness year after year.

Jon, Kee Chong, Eric, Wei Ian, Ana and I were the initial group.
then poor Kc had to leave early, cause he was feverish.
Wei Ian splitted with us to join Candice.
After wat seemed like ages of walking around to get a place to chill, but to no avail and bumping into everyone we know, everywhere.

We eventually got our Starbucks and went up to Royal Bintang Hotel's poolside, courtesy of Tienning.

Eric

Ana & Jon

Moi & Jon

You can say, we literally owned the whole place, since there was noone there except for us. Haven.

Overlooking the crowd

Glimpse of the dim poolside

One of my beloved Quartet

See wudai meant?

Thanks for a great 07 year babe

When the last ten seconds ticked out, confetti flew down on us from the hotel rooms. The streets poofed up in white snow foams . We got the clearest view of the fireworks ever, it felt like the sparks were gonna fall on us. I told Ana to make a wish with every pop. So we did =P.

After Jon left, Wei Ian rejoined us. Squished our way through to 7 E then sat down on the front steps till about 2, Dad fetched Ana and I home.

I got a prezzie from Iannie! So lovely lah the wrapping.

Thanks bestie

* It was definately one helluva year 2007. So much had happened, so much "emotions turbulence", another thick flip of memories, a different group of friends, a new hope, a new perspective, another reality check.

All i hope and prayed for this oncoming year are only 3 mere things.
- that my family will continued to be watched over by God, strengthened and bonded with love and harmony
- that i'll be showered with love and happiness as many days as possible
- that i'll have the last and best high school life

Loves

HAVE A BLASTING YEAR AHEAD PEEPS!

Lets not waste time now.

2007-12-31T13:58:00.000+08:00

What have i been up to the past week?

27th, Thursday.

Went to my "brother-in-law's " place to chill around and have a lil "christmas musical " session, along with Shireen and siblings. Then , my bro-in-law's parents brought us for a good treat of steamboat at Kepong. mMmm.

Ian's total car collection - 112 of em. We were havin a hard time trying to identify 4 of his " special cars".

28th, Friday.

Dad's colleague, Aunt Jenny had a lil gathering at her house in the city. As she was married to a Malay, the house was a westernly-modern-decorated-malay-tradisional-house. Warm and cosy place to have a gathering. While the adults had their drinking games on, us "colleagues' kids" had a movie marathon while swigging pelican vodkas.

29th, Saturday.

Cousin's wedding at Regal House Restaurant.
I'll let the pictures do the talking.

Hair-do of the night

The Bride's Mum aka My 4th Aunt

The Young Couple

Direct translation - "Serve Tea Session"=P

Taking turns to snap a shot with the limelight of the night - the bride's 3 month old shih tzu

30th, Sunday.

Nicholas had a surprise party for Shireen at his place, before she leaves for the US of the A. Practically the whole church youths were there. Ate. Watched Shoot Em' Up, then they had a lil slow dancing thingie going on and more yik yaks. The sweet boy got me a gift from Penang. =)

Dad picked me up before the party ended, headed to Aunt's Karaoke Place to meet up with my cousins and relatives. We had 15 bottles of Carlsberg. Then, couz and i went to the Mamak nearby to catch Liv vs Man City with my Aunt's Godson. I should say its one helluva boring and lousy match. Only reached home and konked at 3-ish.

Talk about time improvisation y'all. Next up, New Year's Eve update! ;)

Its the most wonderful time of the year.

2007-12-26T13:00:00.000+08:00

Post Singapore Pics at Clarke Quay

The Turkish Ice-cream Kiosk

The clinic

Love the wheelchair seats

The past one week....

Lots of carolling, traveling in buses from one beautiful house to the another after the weekend sessions in Ikea.

We even made it to Miss Malaysia's home kay, Miss Deborah Henry.

Buffing ourselves up with food from each and every home we carol in every night. tsk tsk. cracking up silly jokes along the ride.

When we finally finish our carolling session by midnight, it wud be either heading off to after parties, off to have late-night teh tarik, or sis guy wud head back to our condo, and the 3 of us would talk the crap out of the night by the poolside.

Certain days along the week, Juan wud fetch me out to yam cha and dragged me to play foos which i really dislike and am no good at it.

Thats pretty much the summary of the pre-xmas week.

A glimpse of the carollers at Souled Out's private function.

( not the best pic, but you'll have to make do with it until i get a better one)

Our church's adorable bunch of Kids Carollers

Natasha Nevis

Mummy made her the dress, just for christmas =)

No wonder i couldnt find my headphones

CHRISTMAS EVE

The 3 ladies in my family went out for last minute christmas shopping as at One Utama. We even went Toys R Us to get a gift for a lil boy. I felt so young at heart again. Surrounded by all my childhood toys and how i wished my christmas presents would be toys wrapped up in huge boxes just like old times. Then Juan met up, passed me my christmas gift, helped him choose his girlfren's, then ciaoed home .

To avoid the crowd, and the typical christmas promotional menus, we decided to go Japanese for this year's Eve dinner.

Raku Zen at Plaza Damas.

Anthea & Daphne

Our folks

An eve with a chilled bottle of St. Clair

Midnight service in church after dinner . Exchanged hugs and presents.

The "formal" looking lovebirds. Always nice to spend christmas with your loved ones ;)

Spent the early hours of Christmas day with family and wine after unwrapping all the gifts under the Christmas tree.

I've got my loved one toooo =P

CHRISTMAS DAY

Spent the day with friends, unfortunately Ana couldnt make it. Met up with Jon and Jo at the Curve, then 3 of us + Sue Jin took a cab to Ou, since everyone else seemed to be there. Eugene, Zhuxiao, Ken Ng, Wei Ian, J Loh were all there. Had a cuppa of Starbucks then splited. Iannie ,jon and i went for more Christmas shopping while the rest went for movie.

Jon gave me a christmas gift

Lovely

Dinner at Damansara Palace with Dad's long time friends with their children, had a lil karaoke session after everyone kinda tipped down their wine glasses. Then tagged my sis and her guy, Ian to Aunt Janet's house for her post-open-house. Feeling gigglish and tipsy, 3 of us sang in the car all the way there. Left for home at 12.30 and ended up yakking more at the poolside until Ian left.

Iannieeeee

Jon

J loh

have a blessed christmas y'all

happy boxing day

So what happens next when something doesnt turn out the way u expect it to be?

2007-12-18T21:50:00.000+08:00

i wanna post a big shoutout .......

HAPPY SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY ADRIAN TAY !

Unconsciously, a year just slipped by. It was exactly around this time of the year last year how i bumped into this ol std 4 classmate of mine again while working at Br. From then on, i "reunited" with more of my ol primary mates, frequented rasta, met more new peeps, its all partly cause of Adrian Tay here. Wonderful memories we shared during those working days. He never failed to cheer me up when im down at work, him being optimistic himself at most times, and was indeed a dilligent person at work. He was the one that really taught me how to ice skate " independantly". So much more that the lists goes on. Anyway, thanks mate for everything, and i'll cherish all those memories. I hope u had a blast today, and im sorry i cudnt make it in time for ur celebration today. Wait till Tj and Ws is back, we'll make it up to u yeah? ;)

Back to the current day, i was at my second home this afternoon again, aka One Utama.
Planned to catch a movie, but all that's left were crappy seats .
Noel, Tedius, Laila, Jacqueline and i went to this Reptile Exhibition instead,at the Rainforest.
Bloody moneysuckers la, 10 bucks for admission man, but oh well, i guess we've got nothing better to do in mind.
Every part of my body was like tingling with uneasiness, kept thinking what happens if one of the reptiles inside ran loose!!. dyam.

Anyway the man there gave us a good tour treat alrite, they did "feeding time" on purpose to give us a good show.

kiss the bullfrog, and see if it'll reappear to be a Prince Charming

Sleek black and white

Oh hail the devilish snake with evil thorns

Inseparable

Firstly, drop a dead mice in (i never seen a mice as small as this)

Honest to honest, i think the mice freaked me out more than the snake

Next, the snake will start to nibble it

No blood is seen, but only marks of the snake fangs on the dead mice

Then in the tummy it goes, right to the tail.

Grossly interesting.

I wish i had known better.

2007-12-17T21:23:00.000+08:00

After the carolling at the final stop last night, which was at Souled Out, Sis, her guy, Ian and I detached ourselves from our group and stayed behind to join mum, dad and Uncle Andrew for drinks and Liv vs Man u last night, while our ears caught the occasional "football language". May it be foul, or the occasional woooo and yeahhhss.

What a small world indeed, sitting at the next table, i caught a familiar face which i only saw 24 hrs ago, Prakash it is, and Ian Farid ( however u spell his name that is =). Our table had jugfuls of Carlsberg and i added on a Corona. Then off to bed, for a good night sleep, only to wake up, realizing i had a bad dream, and i was involuntarily crying.

Today, i went lunch with mum at Neighbourhood then to Ikea. Grabbed Ikea's yummy Ballerina Hazelnut cookies, their milk choc, and Dill chips. Superb. Then i went Ou with Khairil, aka the Prom king, as he's more commonly known after the DJ prom now, tsk tsk. Wanted to watch the Chipmunk show, but as he was late, we ended up watching I am Legend instead. Not bad, just hate the rat experiment part, freaking every part of me out. Bumped into Zac Vin and Joel P at A n W. Sat down, chomped on my Curly Fries, while Khai and Joel held on to their Pall Mall's , yak for an hour, then i ciao home while they ciao Rasta.

Something still exists,as long as there's someone around to remember it. No?

Light hearted.

2007-12-15T22:28:00.000+08:00

Two nights ago, dad and mum went to Curve's German Bavarian Bierhaus.
Then mum texted me to join em.
Sis guy dropped me off later in the night to join my folks.
Dad got me a share of Paulaner. German beer.
A huge mugful or a tall glassful each.
Just swigging it quenches ur thirst with the rich flavour.
A must try. really.

So today's my second official day of Christmas Carolling on behalf of my Church's youth.
Gawd, it feels like i was working in Promod man.
What with hours of standing on heels.
Adding to it, for my carolling, i had to wear 2 inch plus suede heels and i had to be constantly swaying while i sing. My feet're killing me.
Anyway, we had a "public performance" today at Ikea.
Still feeling kinda un-antheaish doing all this.
Constantly plastering ur fake bright smile , dressed in a lil waitress-like uniform and sing your lungs out in the crowd.
But partly, it was quite an exposure and there were the fun times too i suppose.

Took off to Mont Kiara after that to carol for a christmas party.
Then to Curve to chill.
I skipped the night's session and went to Rasta instead of Hartmas Square.
With them guys who are peeps like Jon, Jo, Tow Jen, Sue Jin and Aun, Joshua Thomas, Kah Kit, Jason Kok and a few more dudes. Later on , met Prakash and Khai and dudes.
Had my waffle,and small talks.
It was a pretty good night for me, a good time to chill.

Headin fer my good night dream now, more carols at Ikea and Souled out tom!
Ciaaaooooo.

Tell me about it.

2007-12-13T21:17:00.000+08:00

What do u know?
I finally managed to chow down at William's last night.
Having heard peeps bragging and overrating about it, just dint have the chance and transport*cough* to reach Mayang land.
So thanks to my Sis' guy and the Ho brothers, which im partially related to , being the sister of their pet sister.
Food was great i wud say, love the Ribena lychee blended thingie thing.
& William's a malay-speaking-chinese joker whose good at menu suggesting, pretty neat.

The good ol Saint Nick season's in like 20 days to come?
Finally got our new christmas tree, though its a slightly smaller one this year, no longer the tall grand looking one. =/
So mum and i took the afternoon putting it up and decorating it the same way we used to truout all the years, with the lil chub looking on.

When i was at Jusco today, helping mum pick out the trees, cant help noticing the mall's already laying out "BACK TO SCHOOL" stuffz, just what i needed . A huge ass reminder that all these lifeless days are gonna end, just before u know it. so brace yourself people, and enjoy the remaining days like hell u deserved it.

Anyways, speaking of christmas mood and all, u know the spread the love, share is care yada yada.
I for one, decided to share a good story/book.
If ur really too sad rotting yourself at home, go ahead and read up Jodi Picoult's - Nineteen Minutes.
Its rather engaging, and for all u high school peeps out there, u can even relate yourself with it, pick up a thing or two =).

Always regret the things u did do, never the things u didnt ;).

I Love Singapore.

2007-12-12T14:20:00.000+08:00

I've only been gone for 3 days, but it felt like ages.

So exhausted and sick of malls that i dint even make it for a Foursome hangout today.

Anyhooeys, the rains been a pain the ass for this vacation.

I cant remember the last time i was in Singapore while it rained. In fact, never.

Reached Johor on Sunday. En route to Singapore. Stayed at Hyatt Regency Hotel, one of the very few hotels that gave me a reasonably good impression. Then took the bus to Singapore to avoid the Jam. Spent the day around Marina and Suntech City.

Hyatt Regency.

The room view.

Next morning, had breakie in hotel , then Dad drove us to Singapore. Again, it started pouring. Checked in at Meritus Mandarin Hotel on Orchard Road. Dad got us the room on Meritus Club Floor. So we got privileges like express lifts, ol day long free internet access, ol day long french cuisine including high teas and pre-dinner cocktails with much needed privacy and practically privilege to enjoy the club floor's fascilities.

Meritus Mandarin.

Taking winks on the massage chair.

All set to shop.

Had lunch at Crystal Jade Res.

Then the shopping spree begins, on Orchard Road. We practically covered the whole stretch of malls.From Takashimaya, to Wisma Atria, to Paragon, To Lucky Plaza, To Tangs and more.

Clarke Quay.

Mua.

My paps and i.

The older version of me?

The fashion designer in the family.

My youthful dad.

The loud and loony and spoiled one in the family.

We had dinner at Clarke Quay. Some italian res, Amalfi. Just to enjoy the scenic riverside view. Sis and i got our share of Turkish ice cream at an eye catching Turkish kiosk. Strolled around, then took a cab back at Swissotel.

In the Christmas mood, Dad surprised sis and i with two gifts, all wrapped up mysteriously, although he hadnt done that in ages, since we always get the cash instead and buy what we want instantly. They were two Gavottes' Choc delicacies.

Le' Paris.

Monday was the day that i bought the most stuff in the family =). While dad went to work, us 3 girls took the MRT to Bugis. Sis strayed off to find her fashion designing materials, while mum and i shopped at Bugis Junction. Bought all sorts of knickknacks at Hylam Street too. Headed back to Takashimaya for more shopping and grab a few bites at the food bazaar downstairs. Lovely food there, had the most sumptious Brownies from The Brownie Factory.I Spotted summin there while i made the return trip, something that really defines me =).

yup, thats me =).

lovely " shanghai-ish old times" perfume bottle with Tommy Girl.

Met dad at the Hotel about 3, then i brought him to check out the Gap Hoodie i had my eye on, while Sis and Mum went to Starbucks to get muffins and Latte for the car ride back. As pampered as i am, Dad got me the Gap Hoodie in the end =). Got my old time fav ice cream in bread thingie, which u can always find around Orchard road, then left Singapore for good.

It was a wonderful vacation and the perfect destination too. What with Singapore as a shopping haven. I mean, i really dont mind staying there u know, since its very much like Hong Kong. Considering i had the same thought about Hong Kong when i was there 3 mths back, except that the whole cantonese speaking thing bugged me. So the closest one wud be Singapore, where i opt for English ;).

I'll upload more as soon as my sis's done withe camera.

Im friggin hungry , thanks to the stupid cat who cant stop zig zagging around peeps' feet while they're having dinner. U have absolutely no idea how freaked out i am with cats. Actually, its both rats and cats, both prey and predator. Pfft.Those two animals are so capable of making me forget my self consciousness, or " supposedly-put-up-public-behaviour"

I lost myself.

2007-12-09T01:32:00.000+08:00

The past few days had gone by in a blurry.

Went for a morning jog with Wei Sheng on Wed morning, reliving the good ol days, exlucding a freaky outcome with some old indian guy by the park, then to Devi's Corner for breakie.
Had dinner with them footballers at night, since Kirs cudnt make it last minute. Adrian, Wei Ian, Andrew, Heng Kit and i dined at Dragon I, Curve. That night made me wondered,why on earth are guys always so playful to the extend of losing their self-preservations. tsk tsk. There's really nothing much in the Curve as usual. So we ended up at Juice Works, with thirst quenching blends, while the guys entertained themselves with random Truth or Dare and walking up to strangers to greet em . like i said, guys.

Engrossed in Jodi Picoult's Nineteen Minutes on Thurs.

Day out with Andrew, Adrian and Narin to Ou on Fri. Watched the Golden Compass . A pretty exciting film. Love dose cuddly wuddly ice bears. Then to church at night, for Praise and Worship session.

I decided to joined my church's youth carolling this year, in conjunction with the good ol christmas season.Although im rarely those who does this kinda thing, just an abrupt decision for a change and something diff to look forward to i presume. And so, people, dont be surprised if u caught me "performing" at Ikea during the weekends, or if u happen to be at one of the parishoners houses =).

Anyhoooeys, i've been on TIRAMISU crave lately yo. Tried out the Espresso-ish Tiramisu at Starbucks the previous week at Pavilion (8/10). Then tonight, family and i went to Chinoz In The Park, KLCC for a drink and bites, Tiramisu there is only so-so. (6/10). Nevertheless, the atmosphere there at night is really good, set at a strategic corner with some sorta alfresco dining at the outdoor fountain area. Im still waiting to try out Porto Romano' Tiramisu though, after hearing much overrated reviews about it. So, ppl out there, if u do know any places with good Tiramisu, do let me in on it =).

Yours truely is leaving for Singapore in 5 hrs time! Christmas Shopping spreeeee! i so need this vacation. See u peeps in 3 days time. Meanwhile, dont miss me too much ;).

The Happiness Equation.
Happiness = Reality/ Expectations.

Good ol days.

2007-12-01T23:35:00.000+08:00

Dragged my lazy bum outta bed today, to go breakie with family.

Chow Yang 's " yau zha kuai" is one of the best around :).

Then , went to Curve to meet up with Adrian Ewey and Tow Jen, since i promised i'd lend a hand to Adrian to help him prepare for his bbq partay, aside from helping him bake brownies.

So off we went to Tesco. Met Trina at Winter Warmers who was suppose to meet up with Andrew.

3 guys, a girl and a trolley, packed with 6 to 7 cartons of drinks, Hersheys choc syrup and ice cream to compliment my brownies, then Adrian's dad fetched us back to his house.

Before the party.....

The back lawn, overlooking the Taman Tun and Ou view.

Bummed around, helped around,( though most was pretty much done by the maids already )while the guys helped to pitch up the pit. While the guys set up the fire,i went back to my hse instead,since they were concerned that i'd soaked my whole shirt with smoke , although sim was kinda enough to offer me his extra shirt, a size too small for him, lol. so i chilled,grabbed a bite, pick up my brownies, then went back to his place again.

Trinaaaa.

Lucas ( adrian's eldest-younger bro ), the one im so fond of, and the one who dragged me around when i ice skate =). haha so adorable.

It was a really good night. Breezy, chomping on deliciously bbq-ed steaks and marshmallows,
overlooking the taman tun view with the night lights on. Bumped into lots of ex primary schoolmates.Later, trina , tow jen, sim, wei sheng and i, played this game introed by trina, called THE FRUIT GAME. As weird as it sounds, but its actually worth a good laugh. Losers had to drink.

Adrian's dad was real sporting anyway. Just wanted to ensure us that we had lots of fun, make ourselves at home, humourous and even brought up all sorts of alcohol and taught the guys how to mix em . The car ride, the home, involuntarily reminded me of the good ol times when Adrian and i used to work in Baskins last year. Almost everyday my dad wud have to pick him up at his place, then his dad wud fetch us back from work.

Later in the night, everyone just lull around, sitting on the grassy lawns, in a circle, fooling around with Adrian's bro, bikes, football, more food, the water sprinkler in the garden, and all the random stuff. Trina and i managed to walk abit around the housing area, where i always loved to look at this nice Victorian House ahead of Adrian;s house.It was my favourite among all houses on TTDI Hills. In spite of the westernize look, the residents are actually malays. Was sppose to go Rasta to meet up with Wes and peeps, but i ended up going home , just to be a good girl :).

Wei Sheng and i. My 6 year long friend.

My bodyguards.

Adrian - My 7 year long friend/ ex class mate/ ex colleague.

Sim and Tow Jen.

Overall, it was a good night. Bounded with laughter and reminiscences

Mm-Hmm.

2007-11-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

Us.

Ou AGAIN today. Honestly, i haven been out with so many peeps in a loooong time. Soo, Eric, J.Chan, J. Loh, Ka Wai, Chin Fei, Chi Ming, Zhuxiao, Heng Kit and the Foursome watched Enchanted . Then its Starbucks for the quartets, yummy almond biscotti for me, and an indulgence of Mcflurry Oreo ! =P.Alot of aimless walkarounds, then i finished my detour at Travel Style again. You'll be surprised all those nonsensical talks with the two bozos there can be pretty amusing at times .=)

One helluva movie, that makes u go "awwww". Romantic sial. And the chipmunk is so friggin adorable!! . =P. But anyway, its fairy tale lah, of course the lovey dovey thingie is enough to make u swoon with glee and envy. I guess the saddest part is, to know our lives ( or at least mine ) can never be what its like in the fairy tale, realistically lah. =/. And Gisele's hairdo ( the Princess ) just had to remind me how much i miss my long waves. damnnit. =/.

Candid at Travel Style.

Haha. Kee Chong looks shy to be sandwiched by us.

Ana the Bel. =)

He never fails to make me smile with this random comments =)

Kee Chong's a real sweet budyy! thanks for being there =)

Anyway, i think this song's lyrics makes helotta sense.

The outside.

By Taylor Swift.

I didnt know, what i would find, when i was looking for a reason.

I know, i didnt read between the lines, and baby i've got nowhere to go.

I tried to take the road less traveled by.

but nothing seems to work the first few times am i right.

so how could i ever, try to be better.

nobody ever lets me in.

and i can still see you, this aint the best view.

on the outside looking in.

i've been alot of lonely places

i've never been on the outside.

you saw me there, but never knew

that i would give it all up to be

a part of this, a part of you

and now its all too late so you see

you could have helped if u wanted to

but noone notices until its too late to do anything.

I forgotten what i wanted for christmas.

2007-11-29T00:57:00.000+08:00

A good read in the morning. A lil fun time with mum. A bite of Starbucks muffin and a sip of Green Tea Frap. A jog in the late afternoon. A swim in the evening. A good meal of Sushis, Salmons, California Rolls, Miso Soup and Green Tea. A self prepared natural yoghurt with fresh fruits. Christmas Carols. A good chat at night.

.... and that has made all the difference. I feel light and enthusiastic about the many things to look forward to in the upcoming days.

And oh! it seems like im going to Singapore after all again!

Bitter-sweet. I finally really know its real means by now, experience wise that is.

Note to all: Dont ever consider vacancies provided by Promod. Its not worth it, cause you'll end up having a very bad impression of the company after a while =).

All i want for Christmas time is........

Spontaneous.

2007-11-27T22:57:00.000+08:00

.....and the dreary silence still drags on.

Like i mentioned earlier, i was literally stuck in a state of solitude for the past few days, well most of the time. Simply because i had nothing ( intriguing enough ) to do, or rather in the mood to. Delving into my novel, which seemed , at the time, the only thing i cud look forward to, being stuck at home. Nevertheless, it did turn out to be an exciting read. Jodi Picoult is indeed a solid and lively story teller =).

On The Sunday, i had to leave the confines of small condo, and left to Ou alone instead. Hide out at Travel Style, catching up with bunch of old primary class/school mates, wes, jien yoong, mark, chi ming. I think that was where i actually had my first laugh of the day, thanks to those jokers. Then, Juan called to meet up. Loitered around, he treated me Starbucks instead. Choc cream chip, all time fav.

On The Monday, i suggested to give my parents a good treat since i've got my pay already, considering they've troubled demselves enough, ferrying me to and fro from work. We went to SS2 at night. Im gonna sound kinda " jakun" here, but man, i don think i've ever been to SS2 at night before, wat with the night market, the crowd, seemed so lively, and and they seemed to have alot of finger food here and there, sooo tempting! i even found " the SS2 food tunnel" which i've heard so long, but never seemed to know where it really is. You can cal it a food haven there.I'm so gonna do a return trip =P We ended up at " Kei Tak Sek" instead, yummy desserts. Ever since Eeven taught me how to eat those glutinous rice balls, i've been craving for it =).

On the Tuesday, wanted to have a lil fun to grocery shop with mummy. But, Jusco just had to close on the very day for stock check. pfft. Had tea break at Nyonya Colours instead, tried on the Ondeh-Ondehs, it was good! See, what made me crave for Ondehs was when i was watching tv the other day, i saw em making it on tv, like for 3 days in a row, so tempting =) and dats all it takes to make me go searching for it . i know, me and my weird craves, such a food-aholic, if theres such a term dat is.

On a random note, i had this sudden thought today, about how having a good memory at times really aint a good thing, i mean certain recollections dont do u nuts, but only evoked unneccessary "not-so-good" emotions . i wish i can actually control and choose what i want to remember and wat i don want to, and credit all those that i don wanna recall to a memory lapse , like some sorta repression.

- The first tear is the hottest, even if u wipe it away, it still sears your skin. =).

Its all in the routine.

2007-11-23T23:36:00.000+08:00

Strangely, these past few days been extremely quiet for me.
It just seemed as though i was pretty much detached from everyone around me.
Even the close ones.
Peculiar. This unexplainable hollow feeeling within just seemed to be emphasized with the disturbing silence around me.
Hmm, is it just me or did everything just happened by coincidence?

In spite of all these, i simply stayed home for the past few days, trusting myself to fill up my time with more beneficial stuff. Mainly distract my mind with all sorts of sports daily and reading Jodi Picoult's novels.I seemed to have lost all enthusiasm on most things which i wud have found entertaining/amusing for the past few weeks. hmmm.

Its a matter of love : the more you love a memory, the stronger and stranger it is.

You dont deserve it at all, if u dont know how to value or appreciate it, so why not just give it up, and stop lingering.

Big Spender.

2007-11-16T23:34:00.000+08:00

According to Ana, the quartets quote. Money is all we have.

And i guess, its pretty much true to me lately, although my friggin pay aint out yet, thanks to the irresponsibility of whoevers responsible of my pay, but i've been spending money like nobody's business lately, as much as im afraid to admit.

When its no work, its nothing but shopping, good food, starbucks, shopping, good food, and shopping again. Its flowing like water man =/ and its no wonder parents are hell scared of school holidays, instead of spending 2/3 of time in tuitions and school, their children are actually having the liberty to spend all that $$ truout the whole 24 hours now. Holidayss what... what else to do la? nothing but spend money and enjoy =).

Anyway, today was lot more better than yesterday. Had breakie with mum and cousins at Sungai Way, bak kut teh. long time no eat =). Then mum , sis and i headed to bangsar again since sis wanted to munch at Nirwana's. While they eat and fill up their tummy, i sipped on my mango lassi n took snippets of papadams and fried bitter gourds. Then then, shopping it is again, this time my "credit card"'s with me =). Bought another pair of Gold Sandals for myself today, at last, or else i bet i wont be able to sleep well everynight, by just thinking of those sandals, "vulnerably exposed" to other peeps who happened to like em as well.. tsk tsk.

These few days been utterly boring for me. With 2/4 quartet gone for their vacation. Others either working or preoccupied. Like Jon said, we've been abandoned! =(. so the abandoned twosome decided to do something today. Jon and i headed to curve to carcg 30 days of night. Not bad for a vampire movie, i think the main actor's cute =P . Anyway, with eerie sound effects and bloody gory throat ripping dripping blood, i think the scary factor definitely trumped Saw =). Famished, we headed to Paddington's for dinner. Coincidently, bumped into Joseph there with Sue Jin and another girl. Twin's telepathy? . They were just done when we got there. So we took a separate table.

I gotta say, two thumbs up for Paddington's. Really good pancakes there. And all the food just look as sumptious. oh oh, the desserts as well! definitely, but we were both two stuffed by then to order desserts, i reminded myself and also asked jon to remind me to come back again for the yummy-looking pancakes dessert =). After he left, i joined mum and dad at Tesco for grocery shopping.

Jon's pancake burger

My grilled lamb with pancakes .

Jon's " supposedly " natural pose to "show off" his Ck watch =)

The last foursome, who always seems to be smiling.

Overall, a satisfying day =)

All that mushy mushy cuteness.

sweetest dreams =)

Feeling childish at heart.

2007-11-14T21:48:00.000+08:00

More piccies....

Ever heard of Polly Pockets??=p

As a matter of fact, i was clearing out some old junk today, hidden away in some long lost boxes. Guess what i stumbled upon? Polly Pockets!!. My gosh, those wonderful memories as a kid. Those used to be my fav past times, special gifts from my dear Mummy. I use to love playing with them, even for hours, amusing myself, giving the lil plastic dolls nicknames, move them around as if they're living in reality. tsk tsk. good times. Now im still wondering if i can find em anywhere... hmm... im pretty keen in adding on to my collection. But kids nowadays just arent into all these anymore no? =/.

To help u conjure a better idea of what in the world are Polly Pockets.....

Ta da!

The prettiful garden. d' house. My 101 Dalmation Polly Pocket. but i just cant seem to find all my small plastic dalmations =( Its the aroused memories that carry so much weight.i use to love doing all this sand art thingie too, but now i dont know what to do with em=/